Today I died
I felt my heart give in
to no surprise
Inevitable a sure thing
Not a lonely tear
No cuts, or bruises
Just dead from inside
I have a problem
No I am the problem
no clue what to do
I was abused when I was younger
now I am this problem
that fights from inside
what she did I want more
I fight it at night
see I am addicted to s**
after I was raped by a cousin
at the age of 7 until I was 9
the day i moved with my dad
It stop I was safe from her
but not my mind
my mind wants it
all the time
I just want to run but i cant
this problem I fight
Its in my mind
No matter the fight
I cant love the love of my life
without the fear of cheating
the s** is always on my mind
no matter the talk no matter the fight I lose the battle
in hope for the won war.