You had a heart of gold I know because I f**ing sold it Truth be told I couldn't even say what I did with the money Heads are like that At least for me when I try to think back This is where I'd ordinarily Check the room for special distortion Stare at the moon and cherish the feeling Eat my words and choke on the meanings Stoke the flames and burn like I mean it This is where we lost our memories This is where I long to be Here I am This walking sum of your disappointments I made peace with that
When I let all the feeling out I can do that much But I can't stop the bleeding Speak in code Spin the wheels til we bend the spokes Shake up these tired bones Make a point and drive it home You're cool as a heart attack I can't move so I can't relax Some things you can't take back Not now Not f**ing ever I've got a heavy soul Right now it's like a f**ing boulder All I know There's not too much more I can shoulder Fill my lungs And cough til I'm heaving Spill my guts And just f**ing leave them