What was the purpose in trying to hide
The fact that another was clawing inside
Decisions, true feelings, would they have been the same
If the constant reminder was dismissed from your brain
Nightmares are repressed so you
Can sleep with the fullest of false intentions
Right upon my chest
Lie to me, lead me on
Tell me everything you wish I was
Don't hold back so I can fill your void with what you desire
Pretending, befriending behind the masquerade
Trying to hide and defy the answers to a question you can't justify
Justify the reasons why you never look me in the eyes
Rape me of my mental stability
Stability will never be an option between you and me
When will this constant cycle end?
I'm back where I stood half a decade ago
And I seem to still struggle with my emotions
Pretending, befriending behind the masquerade
Trying to hide and defy the answers to a question you can't justify
Justify the reasons why you never look me in the eyes
Rape me of my mental stability
I've put up with this sh** for way too long
Apologies mean nothing when you're never wrong
Your smooth skin, those gorgeous eyes
The softest lips that could make me cry
Your scent made me feel alive
But you f**ed him and I f**ed you
If only I really knew
When you f**ed me and he f**ed you
If only I really knew
You faked it every time that you said