aint no point in me waking up,
everybodys time im taking up
i got nobody, it aint a shoulder near,
i cant stay here and its colder there
i dont wanna look back cause its gonna hurt,
i slice my wrists and its gonna squirt for me everybody holds a hate,
i get backstabbed and everybody holds the stake
its no roads to take im in a circle drive, bustin' at my self and im tryna survive
i'll disappoint you, and i will let you down,
and i aint got namy home boys comin' around
you dont understand so dont say you do,
i swear i'll put a f**in' slug in you im the only one, the lonely one,
at home alone, loading a gun thinkning whay not?
i got court comin' up, i stole a truck, i got a b**h pregnant and im broke as f**
i wanna get high but i got piss test, im always first name on top of the sh** list get this,
the Witch has made my shest its permanent nightly visiting nest
it aint no clothes that i look good in, im the motherf**in' big red train that couldnt
i got no family i stole they sh**, restraining orders and i still wont quit i hit rock bottom,
and then i fell in a hole and then i fell through the floor of that hole some more
i been missin' for a year nobody's lookin, i got beat down and my sh** tookin'
i looked ahead and all i see is more of the same
or this self inflicted bullet hole pouring my brain
i drean about cuttin' heads off with a shovel, the dreams are gettin' serious think im in trouble
i dont hold memory for more than an hour, im tired as f** and im drained of power
i aint half way there and im all outta time, im like a crushed light bulb, all outta shine
i been around the world but no place is home i wanna see the other side when i face this chrome
im bu*t naked, i been jackin' off gettin' drunk, its my last hours alive who gives a f**?
it dont matter, im doing the sh** in the garage,
tryna make it easier for them to clean my head splaage
this b**h i loved, i hope she finds me, still up in the chair with my thoughts behind me
im about to do it
can you hold for a second...
hello?