[Verse 1]
This is a memoir
I think I'm on the second page
And yesterday
Took a trip down some memory lanes
It's so insane
I went to Hayes
Can't keep a pace
And man I'm just all over the place
But I don't care
My minds so scattered
I'm just glad it hasn't shattered already
Man what did they tell me
Sticking to this music sh** is never gonna fail me
And they helped me, picked me back up when I was feeling down
I felt the blues
Man I remember...
Back against the wall, there was no one that I could call
I heard it all
I'll be there for you anytime
You wasn't there for any time
And every time I tried to take the knife into my chest...
That's too much to confess
I'm a mess
But I been blessed with this rapping sh**
Yeah, I guess
This sh**s a test
You gotta flex with your mind
You stay forgetting the times
Just take a trip down memory lane and hope the story's the same
And if it ain't then oh well, they say everything change
[Part II/Memory Lane]
I took a trip down memory lane just today actually
It was a nice experience
I remember back when I was 17 and I would think "man, when I'm famous I definitely gotta mention this in my 'when I was 17' episode."
I had made this song called "The Help" for my first album
What actually motivated it was that I wanted to do this tour thing...
My mom said no
It destroyed me
Like to the point that I just didn't want to make music anymore
I was done
And I remember this one time...
I was so happy
My mom had just gotten married
Just moved into a new house
And I mean an actual house
It wasn't big but it was comfy
I miss that place on Hayes Avenue
Going to a new school
It was nice
And then...
That night...
I don't wanna get into much detail... But it lead to a divorce
New city
New school
Ugh
Back to happy thoughts
I remember meeting my dad for the first time
Well the first time that I would actually remember in life
It was May
2011
I was in school and I got called down to the office
Specifically it was my Algebra II cla**
I knew I wasn't in trouble so naturally I was pretty confused
I get to the office and I see my mom
We get to talking and then this guy walks in
My father
It didn't take very long for him to be in tears looking at what I would a**ume was a mirror image of him at that age
I didn't cry...
At least while I was in the office
I didn't know what to think
I won't lie I was really happy about it though
But I guess that's the reason I began to hurt so much once the broken promises followed
We don't talk anymore...
Maybe one day...
One day when I can actually forgive him and mean it
Ugh
I need more happy thoughts
I remember Halloween one year
It was while my mom was still married
We did a scavenger hunt in my basement
It was all Ronnies idea
Definitely my favorite Halloween ever
I'll never forget it
Back to 2011...
My great grandmother died...
So I made her a promise that I would never give up with her watching over me
I'm keeping it
Another important promise in my life
My tenth birthday
I promised that when I have kids I'll always be there for them, and be the father I never got to have myself
There's that memoir