I try to help myself / i want to help myself / i can't help myself / cut away the sickness / scrape away the blackened parts / as i burn myself to ashes / then burn the ashes Silver cataract contemptible / the tip of the hook so close to my skin / once inside it starts to burn / it starts to bleed / my thoughts turn sour again / time reveals that i never change / i want to help myself but i keep falling backwards / surrender is the only answer