I'm Jack Day that still doesn't sync
With visions had him on d**hs brink
God made mistake my path I think
Watching own internal logic shrink
Through my skin into on-line voices
About me everybody else's choices
Don't match the received noises
Accomplish of which they all rejoices
Buzzing inside of what little's left
Someone else's life think I theft
Stupid karma that I've ama**ed
Truth is I constantly think of d**h
Wake up picture an angelic female
Who I've talked to but in little detail
Weigh'd heart on kemet karma scale
Became a victim to my own betrayal
Damn it my 'friends' borderline evil
But sadly they are the only people
Who treat me as if an actual equal
And not just an object of pitiful
Placement inside box stuck inside
When it comes to being despised
But even if social standing revived
The fact I'm not me still's survived
I feel like soon my mind'll melt
At least a couple years I've felt
As if I should be somebody else
Since tried hang self with fathers belt
In bathroom pre curriculum of hell
Delusions of un-grandeur I detail
I am the rust in kindness's chain mail
Can't figure out how to lift the veil
So sorry for the things I never did
Under this persona I dream to rid
Often I feel failings my purpose
My time feel f**ing worthless
Single the sheep that the herd lost
Archaeologists can't unearth this
Real person that the mind forgot
So I think of you when picking a lilac
Cause you're accepted and not fought
And that makes you everything I'm not
I journeyed past misunderstanding
Of technocracy inflicted branding
Respect something now demanding
Though glares that were damning
Each time I feel like I can grasp it
They take my success and blast it
My common errors can't get past it
My false demeanour cannot mask it
Hard for me to be positive to people
Maybe I should stop staring as equal
Hypnosis applied to the sheeple
This despised behaviour forever forever in my recall
Can't describe how it sharpened my senses
But I know my sanity gla**es need new lenses
During this sensation my fist slowly clenches
Agony present in past present future tenses
Ever felt an invisible bug scale your spinal
Chord and felt as if this could be the final
Straw that broke the back of the rhino
It's in my ears, my brain and all of my vinyl
Maybe depression born or self destruction
Notice how my secret sinner self's eruption
Represents each time I got a concussion
What's it like not being a burden or corruption
Within as the shock leaves on a crucifix
Where onto last visages of my sanity affix
What if it's an allergy and minds playing tricks
My life's ending soon what the lucid one's predict
After my first failure it reoccurred
Every time my madman stirred
Attempt to leave old me murdered
From the negative slurs inferred
From formerly known as targets envy
Written when I was scared to emcee
My tongue slipped often carelessly
This is the help not got from therapy
Tired of only living for other abuse
Wish I'd either succeed to recluse
Or managed to succeed tying noose
And recanted to put destiny to use