(Verse 1)
If I keep on with this rapping
What is it worth?
The question I keep on asking
Why does it hurt?
So badly, when actually
I care so much about her
So when i slip up on my problems
I'm making her concerned
Sometimes I'm suicidal
Sometimes I want to burn
Sometimes the people I know
Struggling and living worse
I be the first for arrival
No hospital going to fix me
You either with me or against me
Moments making me feel empty
I'm the one of many
To take on any and everything
If you let me
Fake people be friendly
My father exposed me to music
He spinning, handing him records
Mother exposed me, As a kid
To take on adventures
Both put me under pressure
Well
I believe we already live in hell
I'm not living no fairy tale
In and out of nervous breakdowns
I mean could you tell?
In person I'm always versing myself
I could never rise up and succeed
Unless I fall down and fail
(Verse 2)
Doing things that could probably k** me
All these d** taking over
I wonder who's the real me
Listening to my music
Telling me, you don't really feel me
This isn't no act
I don't get a Oscar
This no filming
I live objected by my thinking
Use my depression as a excuse
For my drinking
Let me sink in
Dive and die
Drowning in this poison
I can't even have the girl i want
I lost my chances
She's avoiding me
She's dissapointed in me
She could never tell me the real reason
Why those eyes look so guilty
Im filthy
Im pathetic
I said things in my life
I never meant it
My heart lost with
Your presence
Your presence saved me
From being reckless
Took me in a better direction
Recording these sessions
So much pain and aggression
I can be insane
I confess it
I take this pride, swallow
Digest it
I hate arguments
Always contesting
Im doing this
For many reasons
Im losing it
My thoughts change with the seasons
How am i dreaming
If i'm not even sleeping
Cause these things happen
And always leave me grieving
I can't stand this constant feeling
I'd rather stay seated
I want to be that person
That you look at and believe in...