[Verse 1: Ill-Noize]
sh** been gettin' personal now...
I been steady watching out the window
Too afraid to leave the house...
'Cause it's the middle of the Summer & the birds are flyin' south, Wild West is callin' out!
It's been teasin' me for years, whisper softly in my ears, knowing I don't know the route
Or that I'll panic & cop out before I wade my way through waves of f**ing crowds...
I don't deal with people too well
Asking for help is like a personal Hell
Headphones in, hoodie up
With my hands in my pockets
But I know to stay alert when I'm walkin'
People shady so I stay with a blade
Nothing big, just enough to leave a message
Wake up everyday count my blessings
But I'd rather stay inside
Than get caught in intersections
While the kids up in my city livin' reckless...
I'ma hide away...
[Hook: Ill-Noize]
Looking for Gold, but all I find is sh**...
In a City filled with crime & violence
That's all they show on the News on TV
When I look at the screen, man I hate what I see
So I turn it off quickly, & I turn my speakers up
With a pad, & a pen, & my mac, & a blunt, uhh
Just close the blinds, I've been livin' like a recluse
Leave me behind, to keep livin' like a recluse...
& lately I don't want to leave my room
I been livin' on the edge
Sort of scared what I might do
I'm finna snap like your neck if you testin' me
I'm trying not to let this cold world get the best of me, So I...
Sit inside & write for days & days
Only to hate all the words, so I burn the pages
Just close the blinds, I've been livin' like a recluse
Leave me behind, to keep livin' like a recluse...
[Verse 2: Ill-Noize]
6 brews in... still at the crib...
Finally a day off... what a f**in' life I live...
& it's, been like 3 weeks since we last f**ed
Why don't, you come over let me bust my nut
Light up a blunt
Put a movie on & let you pa** out
Wake up alone hours later
Guess you let yourself out
Why I always gotta stress myself out?
Overthink everything, or is it just a dream?
Can't separate reality from my escape
But it keeps taking more to get high...
My tolerance gets higher
But my patience gets shorter
Sick of the world's lies, segregation & borders
& the way people look at me like I'm an outcast, but I do everything I can to outlast...
[Hook: Ill-Noize]
Looking for Gold, but all I find is sh**...
In a City filled with crime & violence
That's all they show on the News on TV
When I look at the screen, man I hate what I see
So I turn it off quickly, & I turn my speakers up
With a pad, & a pen, & my mac, & a blunt, uhh
Just close the blinds, I've been livin' like a recluse
Leave me behind, to keep livin' like a recluse...
& lately I don't want to leave my room
I been livin' on the edge
Sort of scared what I might do
I'm finna snap like your neck if you testin' me
I'm trying not to let this cold world get the best of me, So I...
Sit inside & write for days & days
Only to hate all the words, so I burn the pages
Just close the blinds, I've been livin' like a recluse
Leave me behind, to keep livin' like a recluse...