I'm tired of battling, this unrelenting struggle
Its like my head is ah burning from chewin the acid bubble
Gloom of the day, light of this night
What am i so worried of living life out under the sunlight?
It clenches and tears, deep within your soul
Ripping all emotion cold, like a Vietnam vet: AWOL
Ya fought hard so you could not live your life
While burning hearts beyond repair, its part of the strife
Daily awoken to mediocrity, a head-ached guise of pain
Support gave wain as bridges fell; once sustained
Lying is easy, when youre dealt cards in this way
Its happens when you playing by the dealers vicious game
Found comfort in nothing, found solace in thinking
Found time has been sinking myself beyond a re-thinking
10 years running no where, 10 years ran by far
10 years looks good sippin vodka in a car
So as I pick up the bottle, and consume my only pleasure
Please lemme continue to tell ya, thats from you which I measured
So sad it see, So sad for me
But dont you worry any more cuz ya won't be hearing from me
And so, I lift eyes to the sky
I finish the bottle, then tears begin cry
Its as if my emotions are running from afar
Screwed down within this jar
Where the f** is my star?
Turn up the beat and I will make ya see clearly
Relationships are overrated, hell, they're kinda scary...
Turn a sane man crazy, add a lil liquor to the mix
Next thing he does is flip it into the lunatic
College educated, very underrated
The visions and dreams which, reside within in my mind
Are slowly taken and stolen, by this overdose of dimes
Nickel this, quarter that, dollar menu on my mind
Lost in reason, lost in time
No need to write you this rhyme, cuz I suppose I just been speaking, the words of our time
And I got nothing my pain...
The brain is going insane...
Prisoner of a love restrained...
Dont talk to family, its strange
Im just roamin round empty, with nothing to gain
With no soil to step on, the ground is alcohol stained
I'm losing the battle, and the war is caving in...
Next step I gotta take is fight the systematic struggle within
Just sick of me, And Im sick of you
Sick of everything, that I put myself through
Just show me the light, And I will show you fight
I will show you how a f**in man battles through...
These struggles, and everything that we do
It doesnt matter anymore, cuz theres no issue with you
You seemed like a friend
Running hand to hand
Partnas till the end
Destiny we'd mend
Like all things we believe won't ever end, I gotta find myself again
So I throw you away to my lonely garbage pen
Lock you down real tight, as you hit the metal side
I can hear the crash, a shattering of gla**, finally delight
Take a deep breath, now everything seems semi-right
Head is so clear n I can see, so why now you singing your song again to me?
I threw you away
I said to stay away
I said to GO AWAY
You're demons are decay!!
But I always did love your, intoxicating embrace
It was with you, in which I found my righteous grace
I suppose you might be right, just one more night
Open you up, to sip and seep you back in my blood again
I can't quit you again, my dear n closest friend
A hangover is worse, without you here, to mend...
This saddened fragile heart, lost in the dark
I tip you to my lips, surrender to your kiss in bliss...
Its love again