[Intro - K. Jayz]
Speaking of suicide, I ain't never going out like that
(Never thoughts of suicide)
I'm in this life to live to the fullest
(Livin' til the day I die)
[Verse 1 - K. Jayz]
Back when I was a younger lad, never thought that this would be the life I'd have
But I have to make you understand
I was living in Never-Ever Land where sh** don't never go your way
Good friends always seemed to fade away
Breakaway from reality so I can at least have a decent day
These n***as'll turn they back on you in a half of a second
I always regret letting them in my life, but I never forget it
Cause now I'm stronger and wiser
I never adapt to the lifestyle of another motherf**er on paths different than my own
Stay the f** outta my zone
Tell me, are you ready for anything if the time is on?
Answer me that question, are you really prepared?
Prepared for other n***as looking to get theirs
For me, myself, and I, I stay ready til the day I die
I'ma rap for the rest of my life, no thoughts of suicide
Since my late brother in heaven cannot witness this
I'ma do this for him, til my life finishes
[Hook - GG]
Looking for ways to go through my life
I'll never be out until the day I die
I might live wrong, but in my head I'm right
Never be satisfied until I'm in the sky
[Verse 2 - K. Jayz]
You was there for me when nobody else existed
At least in my mind, cause nobody else would ever listen
I was only 5 years old when you left the world
But five years is enough to know that you was real
I was the oldest, but you were still ahead of your time
Like you already knew the impact you'd leave in our lives
And strangely enough, it's like you never left
You watched over with God to keep our lives in check
I can't begin imagine where my life would be
If you was never there, heaven knows I was lonely
I needed someone like you so I could console
And when you left, it was like a last episode
But now I do stupid things to keep the stress at bay
Like f**ing with hoes, and always looking for Mary J
You was heaven sent, so now you back up in the sky
And I won't see you again, until the day I die
[Hook]