[Verse 1]
I see oxygen - doctors and nurses in my house
Around the clock again - you in pajamas rockin'
Sweatpants and moccasins - me, Ben, and pap just watchin' it
I'm really losin' marbles - wringin' out and blockin' it out
Words are gettin' lost in your mouth
I can't find them in mine, but you know what I'm thinkin' 'bout
Love just got the drop on me - big gravity
Weight on my chest, but you serene
Eyes fluttered like half of the south - without a doubt
When I walk I hear the change in my pocket like a tambourine
'less I smother the tones with headphones
Being in public alone easier than bein' home
Lookin' at your short grey hair - kinda lonely
Takin' flash naps and gaspin' for air
All that I can do is chill and hold your hands while I'm there
Speak quietly and hate the fact that I just get to wait
Try to speak - it's like the language fell out of my face
So I put slogans and grunts and sh**ty raps in this place
It's like the language fell out of my face
And so I put slogans and grunts and sh**ty raps in this place
[Hook]
Because my momma to me comes number one (x3)
Because my momma to me
Because my momma to me comes number one (x4)
[Bridge]
And now every time I hear the word cancer I need a cigarette
I'm not sure I get it yet (x2)
[Verse 2]
But either way ma' the smoke from my mouth makes moves in your honor
Sit back and watch it wander - watch it buckle and swerve
And make shapes like a thin gray muscle
Most strength that I got - tryin' to touch it
It was all in a day's breath stickin' to the thought like
Magnets that you got a couple days left
Now I'm bugged out and flippin - actin' so whack
To my people so they actin' cold back
And now every time I need a little moment I take a cigarette
The ultimate in "be right back" solution - and a kiss(?)
I open up my chest, take breath, feel pathetic and blessed
Mostly straight-up stressed - I'm thinking less and less about
Anyone but you and now I'm obsessed with d**h
And the panic and the void and this ice on my breath
And now I'm talkin' to my hands like they were God
'Cause there's not one, and knowledge is hard
You know that I would love to see you winged out
Fresh purple capes - William Shakespeare feedin' you grapes
That's a fantasy, and I don't f** with none of that sh**
Just miss you, and I can't hide the shake in my lips
'Cause of you I had a childhood the size of the sky
'Cause of you I'mma feel nice and warm 'til the day that I die
Had a childhood the size of the sky, and Ben did too
[Hook]
Because my momma to me comes number one (x7)
Because my