You waste yourself like you waste us all
Still she swears it's not your fault
She clings to the thought it keeps her alive
But I see through your f**ing lies
Can't you see the fury
Pouring from my eyes
k**ed everything you've ever loved
Why couldn't you have died
And all this time spent wondering
If everything we had was just going to f**ing be okay was a waste
I've fallen so, so far since then
I wish you could just look me in the eye one last time before the end
And see how much I f**ing miss you
I've fallen so, so far since then
It destroys me just to see you
To even look at all
The sight of your broken soul
Every time you fall
Can't you see we need you father
I don't care if you can't walk
I just need to see your heart intact
You can make this stop
But f** you are far fallen
From where you once stood proud
Why the f** are you laughing?
Do you find me funny now?
And all this time you've moved your tongue
Trying to get inside my head
And all this time all I could say
Is how I wish that you were dead
And you've been suffering for so long
And of course I f**ing care
But you won't ever f**ing hear this song
You act like we're not even there
I loved you once but now I can't recall
The man you used to be
Or were you ever even man at all
You're only ever sick in my memories
How could you forget
That once upon a time you f**ing loved us to d**h
I can't just forget about you
It destroys me just to see you
To even look at all
The sight of your broken soul
Every time you fall
Can't you see we need you father
I don't care if you can't walk
I just need to see your heart intact
You can make this stop
But f** you are far fallen
From where you once stood proud
Why the f** are you laughing?
Do you find me funny now?
And all this time you've moved your tongue
Trying to get inside my head
And all this time all I could say
Is how I wish that you were dead
I can't just forget about you
I can't just let all of this go
I can't just forget about you
I can't just let all of this go
I can't just forget about you
I can't just let all of this go
I can't just forget about you
I can't just let all of this go
Father I am alone here
You never showed me how to be a man and
Father I am alone here
I'm doing the best I can
Father I am alone here
You never showed me how to be a man and
Father I am alone here
I'm doing the best I
Father I am alone here
You never showed me how to be a man and
Father I am alone here
I'm doing the best I can
If you can hear me father I'm so sorry
I was just a boy and I was so so angry
None of this was your fault I just wish that you were here
It's been getting colder here year after year