I just hate to be alone in this world baby girl
I just hate to be alone in this world (2x)
Lately it's been too much of a chore just to survive..
But how can I ask you for help when I can't even help myself?
Come to think of it why do I always suffer alone
When all I ever do is help everyone else
In my house I've been with the stealth
Hiding from all the pain I felt
And feel again its needles piercing velvet
The main cause is wealth
I ask When will this life be blissful?
I'm tired of eating sh** stew
I'm tired of nearly getting fired
Kicked out of my igloo
I'm dying from demons beating my a** no lack of jiujitsu
They pin me down like Prometheus pecking at all my issues
Picking up all these tissues I'm never using but just in case
Suicidal survival is looking too tainted as of late
When I was younger I had so many dreams of being great
Now only time I'm dreaming is when I'm forced to sleep
Each and every other day
This is Cula's colorful mind displayed in black and grey
I just pray I'll be ok
Baby I just want to be ethereal
Love me like you love the sun and stars
Worship me like the damned soul I am
On your mental I see ultraviolet scars(2x)
I just hate to be alone in this world baby girl
I just hate to be alone in this world (2x)
Lately it's been too much of a journey just to get up
I used to search for glory now I need reasons to stay awake
Never worried about the picture that I painted for an audience
That didn't even care enough to memorize my name
Alfonso has no time to go on quests for a dame-
But damn do I got time to really pick apart my brain
In the darkness I become a neuro-scientist
And test my calculations on the only one I ever had to blame
Guess who?
Where were you when diapers were still a mandatory
Its been survival tactics since then call it Amanda's story
Believe in me when I say just like preying mantis
I plot in patience picture myself on stages so famous
That I pay people paychecks every show I do
Yeah that's me giving back
Work for me I'll work for you and all you do you'll get it back
That goes to my family too the main source of my drive to live
Cuz how could I take my life when I was chosen as your kid?
Chosen this chosen that
Comes around a lot in life
Choices made I chose to rap and prove just what I've got in life
I was picked so that means I gotta represent how I feel
So lll stand on the sands of time with my flag as king of the hill
Ethereal..
Scars..
Scars..
Ethereal..
Scars..
Scars..
Baby I just want to be ethereal
Love me like you love the sun and stars
Worship me like the damned soul I am
On your mental I see ultraviolet scars(3x)
(Baby I just want to be ethereal..
Love me like you love the sun and stars. Worship me like the damned soul I am
On your mental I see ultraviolet scars) quieter
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