This would be one of my deepest flows ever/
Questioning God why me cause never/
Thought my life would turn out for the better/
Dudes I use to look up to that was on higher levels/
I stepped over & kept it moving like bike paddles/
Now rats stay chasing me cause I got cheddar/
With diamonds that bright up different colors like fruity pebbles/
Damn..I sit back & I jus wonder/
Swear that I never seen this here coming/
Born partially unwanted & given nothing/
Blinded by my childhood.. Stevey Wonder/
Is if I did something wrong..felt I was punished/
Facing consequences before my repercussions/
f** it..is how I felt mann swear I did/
Witnessing adult sh** just as a kid/
Now I say it is what it is/
Looking back I wish a n***a would tried saying that sh**/
Word on everything a n***a came from nothing/
I'd never take a plea cause I'm not settling/
Part of the reason I won't do relationships/
Trust issues make it hard to go thru w//
Falsely accusing my other half of cheating/
Allowing gd ones to go because of my conscious/
Females telling me I'm the best they every had/
& its sad cause I'm rolling stone like my dad/
Same person I can't stand I'm just like/
I hate it when family members say we look just alike/
Taking his ugly treats plus he wasn't in my life/
Things he should a taught me but I came out alright/
Being abandoned took a toll me tho/
Use to not having so I'm afraid of letting go/
Like I'm holding for dare life but my feet on the floor/
Life is a unsure question that we'll never know/
But know I'm starting to live life to get my best answer/
Yolo too bad we ain't giving multiple chances/
Living to the fullest I don't take sh** for granted/
When its over its over ain't no use of ranting/
I'm not afraid of dying but afraid of not trying/
Hate not finishing what I haven't yet accomplished/
Stuck on being a winner don't like the thought quitting/
My own worst critic ion need ppl sayn what I isn't/
Seeing where I'm at now a n***a turned out great/
It took time but I'm okay w/ being late/
Never late is better but better late than never/
Life's courses made me out to be quite clever/
Now I smile just to smile w/o a giving reason/
Knowing God got me covered is pretty damn relieving/
Ima keeping going till the day I stop breathing/
Thats the only way I'll stop believing best believe it..Alive & Living/