This would be one of my deepest flows ever/ Questioning God why me cause never/ Thought my life would turn out for the better/ Dudes I use to look up to that was on higher levels/ I stepped over & kept it moving like bike paddles/ Now rats stay chasing me cause I got cheddar/ With diamonds that bright up different colors like fruity pebbles/ Damn..I sit back & I jus wonder/ Swear that I never seen this here coming/ Born partially unwanted & given nothing/ Blinded by my childhood.. Stevey Wonder/ Is if I did something wrong..felt I was punished/ Facing consequences before my repercussions/ f** it..is how I felt mann swear I did/ Witnessing adult sh** just as a kid/ Now I say it is what it is/ Looking back I wish a n***a would tried saying that sh**/ Word on everything a n***a came from nothing/ I'd never take a plea cause I'm not settling/ Part of the reason I won't do relationships/ Trust issues make it hard to go thru w// Falsely accusing my other half of cheating/ Allowing gd ones to go because of my conscious/ Females telling me I'm the best they every had/ & its sad cause I'm rolling stone like my dad/ Same person I can't stand I'm just like/ I hate it when family members say we look just alike/
Taking his ugly treats plus he wasn't in my life/ Things he should a taught me but I came out alright/ Being abandoned took a toll me tho/ Use to not having so I'm afraid of letting go/ Like I'm holding for dare life but my feet on the floor/ Life is a unsure question that we'll never know/ But know I'm starting to live life to get my best answer/ Yolo too bad we ain't giving multiple chances/ Living to the fullest I don't take sh** for granted/ When its over its over ain't no use of ranting/ I'm not afraid of dying but afraid of not trying/ Hate not finishing what I haven't yet accomplished/ Stuck on being a winner don't like the thought quitting/ My own worst critic ion need ppl sayn what I isn't/ Seeing where I'm at now a n***a turned out great/ It took time but I'm okay w/ being late/ Never late is better but better late than never/ Life's courses made me out to be quite clever/ Now I smile just to smile w/o a giving reason/ Knowing God got me covered is pretty damn relieving/ Ima keeping going till the day I stop breathing/ Thats the only way I'll stop believing best believe it..Alive & Living/