[Intro: Flattop]
Yeah..
I'm just not feelin it right now to be honest with you guys
I'm just looking at my future in I don't know
In a different way this time
I'm not as hype as I used to be
That's for sure
Yeah
[Verse 1: Flattop]
I can't tell you guys how much it k**s to pay the bills
Watchin my momma do it gave me the chills
Wish I could be happy but this hit me in the feels
Lookin myself in the mirror like what's the deal
Yeah what's the deal, foreal
I wish y'all knew exactly how I feel
To turn up on the daily
Go to sleep thinkin that maybe
I might have a future I wanted and it's crazy
All I wish is I would get a girl
Not the one that's shinin on the field
Not the one to swoop down to fulfill
And don't ever be telling me Melissa's not a thrill
She a thrill to get her would be unreal
Not afraid to tell you how I feel
The feelings up and down then spread it all around
Pick a feelin up then set it on the ground
Yeah set it on the ground
Listen up Nick, to this little bit
I know you wanna jam, gotta jam this is sick
Man I'm sorry this is sick
Understand this is all I got, all I want
Put all of my eggs into one
And it's all my fault
Yeah and it's all my fault
[Verse 2: Flattop]
But understand I'm really not to blame
All I wanna do is entertain
Put myself with money and the fame
Take away replace it with a dame
Yeah just to see what is the game
That I am longing for this is a shame
Shoot me down I see this is the thing
That girls wanna do but just remember I got a saying
(I) would rather be shooting for the stars
Then settle for the girls that drive in cars
Understand I'd take a trip to Mars but
Never got the type of cash to satisfy the jar
Yeah I need this I really do
To have this rap music in my blood is number two
To get a chance to see this music through and review
To get a chance to go big like news and The Views
Just to see that happen in my life
Would prove more than once that I'm here another night
I'm here another night
Yeah I'm here another night
But won't forget all those times I tried and I tried
Tried to forget, tried to provide, tried to survive
Yeah tried to survive
[Verse 3: Flattop]
But understand that ain't all I got
Running like a thief
Dreaming to believe
Money is a not
But money gives you (a)lot
Money on my mind besides that Ima not
Spend it when I shop x2
Planning to be saving forgive me I'm gonna lie
Cuz money on my mind
My money on my mind
Never wanna leave it'll leave me when I die
Cuz heaven where I lie
Heaven where I lie
Freedom of the greed you can see the way I fight
Cuz evil now has died and winnin on my side
Plus wit God Ima believer
Confidence on override
But how do I survive
How do I provide
How do I forget
All these feelings buried in the drive
Yeah all the feelings buried in the drive
Just because you can't delete doesn't mean you can't be right
Yeah I wish that were the case
But it ain't
Yeah
You know, my dad said
It's a dead end road son
It's a dead end road
And I believe him