[Verse 1]
The same heart that stopped beating, is the same one that shattered
We were one in unison, everything started heating with this matter
So clumped together like an atom, electronegativity could've smashed 'em
I remember parts of our life being crazy when we would say these ladder
Of different things, each getting badder and badder than the one last heard
But, what I last heard, made the future, present and the past hurt
I was handed your diary, read everything you wrote before you died early
"Dear diary, I can't stand my damn anxiety, a variety of emotions
Set in motion, feels like I'm drowning in an ocean
Everything coinsides with beef
I don't even understand, people bully me
So much, I needed to get a crutch
I try to be nice to everyone
I don't get it, tomorrow, I'll have fun, I've got the gun
I'll be happy again, ready to meet my maker, Done being a quaker
It's time to end this steady war that's been going on in my mind
Leaving me confined to the hatred of the outside world…"
On that night, she ripped up the Doc's referrel, the bullet shined like a pearl
When I asked about the girl, her mother squeezed me like a chew toy
She whispered "Look at you, boy, haven't seen you in a blue moon," joy
Came to her expression but her expression lessoned, she was also pained with new news
She handed me a note left behind, who knew someone so good, could go too soon
[Verse 2]
I opened the letter, for worse or for better, read what upset her
She layed things openly with said hurt
"…If you're reading this, it means I've found my way out
Thank you for helping with everything you could, now
It's time for me to move on…"
She was pronounced dead at the break of dawn
Continued reading the letter sent, "I'll always love you till the end
Of time, till time itself doesn't exist in it's prime, I promise, this isn't goodbye
Whipe the tears in your eyes, d**h won't do us part…"
At this part, I felt a crack in my heart
Like an earthquake pounded through it's stable concrete
I stood by the lake where we always would eat
On picnics and joke around, We'd also talk about what astounds
Us and talk about what got us down
"…Rick, you've always had the crown, you're my king, I'm your queen…"
Thinking about this moment, while looking at the scene
All I can do now, is look into the sky and ask God, "Why?"
[Verse 3]
Went into my pocket, took out a locket and placed it in your casket
And the sadness, you just couldn't mask it, pain soared like a rocket
Becoming nauseous, thinking through the process of your last pic
That you took, looking at it, thoughts shoot through like automatics
Your beautiful eyes closed, People staring as my tears explode
Wasn't kosher, I became closer and closer as you were lowered
I made an oath, no, a vow to never love again, forever a loner…
So I go into hybernate mode, wake up and walk this lonely road
[Outro]
I hope you're smiling at my decisons, while I'm sitting here wishing
Wishing to see you again, oh, I'll wonder what it's like to be sitting
In Paradise, My dear friend, I have a lot to tell you when we meet again
Please don't blame yourself, for all of us going through hell
You fought all that you could, Yelled all that you could
If only it all worked out, but life ain't no Fairytale