[Verse 1]
We about to enter Christmas
Let's take a look at my wish list
Maybe make it become a gift list
Homegirl stack ones cause s** sells
I want her to know I care bout her health
We both need mental help
I remember going through hell, starving myself
Saving lunch money to get those OVO Jordan twelves
All started when you said I want you to sit with me
And talk to me like my father never did with me
I sat beside you, ramble on while we sit in grief
Forty ounce couldn't sort me out gotta be kidding me
[Verse 2]
Flashbacks to when I started wearing snapbacks
And a backpack when my dad snapped back
His friends attacked fast
Quick to jump the gun with the clap back
My dad sat crying inside, dying inside, flip to the b side
And you'll see him cry, A side his face look dry
B side streams don't subside, face looking like Niagra falls
Hard feelings like viagra call
Picked up the phone, I cry at the call
Estatic, can't hear, too much static, make it disappear
Like my dad screaming "Cheers!"
Again and again, beer after beer
I'm living in the end jumped with the fear
Lost control can't steer
There's a lot on my mind and it's grabbing me from behind
Staring at comets wishing that you'd finally be mine
Thought you were sublime, but like my father you let me down
Life pa**ed you the crown
And now it's your turn to make me frown
Every piece to this town remind me of our time around
Stay clammed up in Primos in the dark corner like an emo
Watching you and your ego roam free like an American Eagle
Staring at me, I'm just street gold, who could ever want that?
Walk away and I respond fast, watching as you flaunt a**
You were the one who taunt last, haven't seen you since
Memories stay in remnants, every time I can, I reminisce
On all the bliss that was given to me by life as a gift
Sift through every moment looking for the right rift
Vibes shine bright in the light during the day
But at night the light dims and my brain decays
Sipping deep down in this forty ounce wondering why you won't stay
Demons want to come out to play and shout rays of profanity
Taking away my humanity, gripping to all my fantasies
That make the damage free, you were the only one who could manage me
Never worked out cause you Sandwich beef
Could never stand with me so you stood out like a hoodlem with his hood down
[Verse 3]
You said no before, wishing you would now
Standing here with a shook vow and a broke valve
Screaming so loud: "Ricky, please don't go now"
You the d**h of me, that's how I'm going out
Numbing pain with smoke I'm blowin' out
There goes the candles, yeah Ricky, make a wish
Put cake on a dish, I like having and eating my cake too
I'm in shambles, dismantle and decypher the dish
As you walk out of cumbies, I look and talk doubt
What you want from me? I'm shook, I get up and shout
[Verse 4]
Intimidation is a b**h
Loved you, it's temptation
To hope for reinflation on my heart's deflation
I'll never have salvation so I reach into the mason jar
Grab the bud that's caged in, break it and start blazin
Few more beers and I feel amazing, cans in my car
Barely know what I'm saying, go by Circle K then
Take a left, I'm on the high way, Ben called ain't say sh**
Speed up, I love the rush, I just pa**ed two trucks and a bus
About to combust, display anger, disgust on everything dicussed
Turned snow into slush, voice box about to bust
Patch of ice on this run then you hear something crush