Yo, I can't really tell you what it feels like
To be there before this happens, I been Mike
But now I'm on my feet and I can stand right
But when I go out the door I can see the light
I'm battling the hatred, I can sight
Following behind me like a tread pike
What happened all before, is just the past
But I don't know if I can go further, I won't last
So maybe it's the end, I don't really know
I'll grab the keys, hold me tightly before I go
See me as I am, I'm not a miracle
My life is like this Earth, it's spherical
My ghosts are surrounding me, it's spiracle
I remember this enchanted land, I was here before
Know what knows what I go through, it's not a lie
Going through this longer, I can't, I rather die
I'll just stay home, nowhere else I'd rather hide
But I can't leave it here yet, someone be my guide
I'll hold this world up, my arms are open wide
If only you knew what I've went through
You'd know I wasn't lying, what I said, it's all true
So now I'll bring my chorus onto you
And I'll sit on my porch, from my hat to my shoes
Wondering where and when, from the bottom, them to the who's
Ma**ive endings, full of lust and love
Someday I won't wake up, and fly up above
Dramatical entries, and wakenings failing
From these f**ed up nerve endings, I've been patiently sailing
I took up my meaning, without a cause or effect
Haters hating on me, is the only thing that I defect
I'll just smash all the cowards, that get in my way
"You have no life, you're done" yeah that's what they say
But they can't say that, I know they're all fake
I'm done with all this whack bullsh**, for f**ing sake
It's my new rhymes I create, and the songs are done, chorus's I make
I'll rise up in heaven when I sleep, before I wake
No matter the obstacle, I'll travel so far
f**ing tanked up, I'll hit the gas pedal hard
Because I want to leave this world, that's given my nothing
What they say isn't even true, they're fussing
f** all a' that, you fakers can blow me
Give me some facts, if you think you really know me
And if you do, please f**ing show me
I'm gonna' pick myself up and walk out the door
And leave this past sh** that I had all before
I don't want to deal with something I don't even need
I drop a couple lines for you, then I start to concede
Take my mind away from me, but my heart I'll forever keep
Because these nights are dark and gloomy, I can't hear the beep
Of the sound you create when you're yelling at me
Makes me want to crawl up, until I finally die
I'll pull my f**ing self up from this life, won't cry
You'll be the first person and only one to see my try
I'll move along this road so empty and dark
Make a new stance for myself, I'll set my mark
Only if you knew, what it feels like
To find an empty heart
Should I start over? I think I just might
What would you do
If you knew this pain
Would you be sad
And cry from under the rain
Only if you knew
Only if you knew
Only if you knew
What it feels like
Yeah I have my problems my doubts
But I won't stand around roaming about
My f**ing chances or solutions of fate
Make a house for me, let me open the gate
So I can come in and let my train set of thoughts
Open up my feelings let me love what I got
Because things can be taken away from your hands
And get f**ing destroyed, your life won't enhance
You'll be dead before you know it, let your love set free
Challenge your world, do what it says, because it's meant to be
Don't tell God you don't believe it, you know it's not true
There's only one person who knows anything, and that person's you
Me, is what I know, and everything I did
Doesn't mean I was tough, it's hard to admit
I didn't sit here and let my dreams come reality
I let my voices tell me there's no such thing as a broken brutality
Don't give up on hope, it's right around the corner
Don't be depressed all day and cry, like a mourner
Pick your head up and know there's another day
Like everyone says, from beginning of September to the end of May
You have to work your a** off to get what you want
Work like nothing else matters, and move like your flaunt
Maybe this world can see me as I am
But it's eaten me up like I'm some big pile of ham
But what have I done here to become once a man?
I set my dessert on, and I put my hands through the sand
Welcome to the challenging obstacles called life
Life isn't short man, you gotta' put down that knife
Only if you knew, what it feels like
To find an empty heart
Should I start over? I think I just might
What would you do
If you knew this pain
Would you be sad
And cry from under the rain
Only if you knew
Only if you knew
Only if you knew
What it feels like
What it feels like
Yeah, this is what it feels like