i was wrong, you were not bigger than this and long before i was baltimore bound you had changed- your heart was not in it and the fewer words that tied your hands to this, the better cut all ties off, and retreat to your father's house!
but i think it'll feel the same no matter where you are so even if i had wanted you to stay it wouldn't have changed anything anyway, if even time couldn't sober you up than i feel sorry for you