(XEL)
Lately I been feeling like nothing is okay
Unless I had a couple puffs and some Jose'
Stuck with the co-pay
Got these little demons on my shoulder
That are telling me "f** what the hoes say"
Try to recapture the feeling, it's stacked to the ceiling
I went out as a hero but then came back as villain
Man, I'm after the millions too, don't get it twisted
If this rap sh** don't work for me I'm a still need them digits
This an ill evil sickness that I'm living in
I got anxiety in my veins depression is my imprisonment
Desolate conditions, a pessimist tradition
You'll never get to listen to my b**hing no more I'm giving in
But God damn, man you so funny
But I'm on the edge on sanity barely living off no money
How's a tiny bit of laughs, gonna pay the bills
They gone find in the gra**, with another plate of pills, sh**
(Hook)
Everybody hates me, I'm losing control
Another bottle down, I am moving too slow
Reading from a script then... no beating this addiction
Don't ruin the show
We've been over this, feel nothing is a cold as this
Feel like I barely know what sober is
Time to give it up, time to fess up admission
Is free with me, cause that's the pessimist tradition
I don't wanna stay and k** the relationships I have left
Playing with the past less but Satan's at my lab test
Taking in a fast breath, and hoping I'm a be alright
Hoping I can see the light, open up a deeper sight
I need to write, but tell me what about?
My friends and family all of them I cut em' out
They want to see me fail, so I gotta take another route
Trying to get me in a jail, so a lot are fake no love devout
Tell me why I'm trying to impress, people it's time to confess, evil
Inside of my chest, lethal and I should know
Violent of stress feel like needles I'm kind of a mess, see through
Got lined up regrets, leave you inside of a show
So yeah I climbed to the top when I young but still I don't know when I fell
And you playing with poker kings now and you showing your tell
Ain't nobody really worried about me
I'm out G, and I'm going to hell
(Hook)