[Break: Ej Laflare]
35 bucks
Mama, pay my bill
Know I never do, though I say I will
Know you got my back, you don't ever need to say it
Even if it seems like I don't appreciate it
(x2)
[Hook: Megan James]
I'll not get old
If I dig with my knees, if I grind on my teeth
I know from the attic of me
From the bottoms of cleats, from the wayward it seeds
[Verse 1: Ej Laflare]
When I think about it, I just go into a rut
And yeah, maybe my life wasn't that tough on the outside
But the inside's messed up
After a while, I had just had enough
No one ever knew how bad I was treated
Someone to talk to was the only thing I needed
Felt like I was tortured for no reason
And when I told people, no one would ever believe it
Everybody always thought that I was crazy
It's amazing that all of this made me a better man than I was
And it worked out, though they say it never does
Even though my childhood wasn't that great
I never really had a lot of friends who'd relate
And everything that I went through, never really left
So I had to get away, cause I knew that that was best
[Bridge 1]
Now I'm trapped in a trap, and these n***as ain't forgetting
They wanna see me locked in their own little prison
Everything they did, I admit that it hurt
And the fact they were friends, that really made it worse
(x2)
[Break + Hook]
[Verse 2]
Back against the wall, I'm out of options
Out in public and I really feel lost
At a restaurant, at the end of the table
Suddenly, I got bu*terflies in my navel
With a bunch of people, and I know I don't belong
For some reason, I start to really feel wrong
Mom told me "Never let them affect you
Cause that's the only way they'll ever get you"
I sat with that advice for years
Now because of that, I can wipe my tears
And accept myself for who I am
Now I'm in a better place, and I really like it here
If you feel you're in trouble, I will lend a hand
And do all the hard work from 10 to 10
If you never really felt like you blended in
I am here for you, from begin to end
[Bridge 2]
If you're trapped in a trap, and your n***as ain't forgetting
And wanna see you locked in their own little prison
If there's a time that you ever felt fear
Just remember that I went through it, and I'm still here
(x2)
[Break + Hook]