[Verse 1: Eedee]
Going on vacation, a moutain of debt
Find it funny in my youth I found the fountain of d**h
I'll be poundin' my chest till the day that I drop dead
Cause when it's all said and done, I put work into my sh**
Purchasin' tickets, purchasin' beats
Cursin' the b**hes that curse at my feet
Hurtin' the critics that hurt me with glee
Perfectly with it, I'm perfectly me...
Yeah, but that callback though
But that fallback though
Risin' from ashes and all that smoke
Tryin' to capture the god damn glow
That I got at the start, I look back now
How wack I was, but I shook that out
I struck gold, f** old time sake
Make the best of the moment, oh my ways
Were so off, this needs to be
Tellin' no one this, yellin' oh so pissed
I dream of seas, rockin' the boat, give the coffin a go, is that a no?
Going Forward was a steppin' stone, I coulda done better
Heaven knows even a stone can be a gem though
Do I regret it? Oh hell no
I'm not sorry, sh**, no one is as proud as me
Well-son, unless I go and drown at sea, but that's my daydream
[Hook: Eedee]
Waves, they carry me hither and thither
Around the ocean, around the ocean
And then daydreams follow me to a better night
I scream, and I scream
And I can't even get out of these f**ing nightmares
But daydreams of me drowning at sea
But how can it be like this?
[Verse 2: Eedee]
(When will he ever wake up?)
(Sweet dreams)
Sometimes when I fall asleep, I wonder if it's all a dream
What if I never went to Australia, it's not what it seems
I'd probably scream, drop to knees and just breathe (heave)
What's the point of livin' if there's no reason to be? (you see it?)
I'm hurt from the pain, she turned me away, wake up and I'm 30 today
What'you want me to say? That I'm okay with the f**ing face you made?
Anger, pain, it's strange, but hey, you still are heavenly to me
I'd daydream about you till the very d**h of me...
And speaking of that, even if last night never happened
I'd spare you the expense of seeing me torn like this
And I can't even breathe without you in my life anymore
(What the hell...? Did I just wake up...?)
[Monologue: Eedee]
You should've never given me time to think
It's what I do when I'm alone
Which turns out to be the majority of the time
I don't think I'll ever get over you;
Otherwise I'll never be the same
Think about it, you're a part of who I am now
A piece of me is you - and nobody wants a broken person
Unless they think they can change them
Which means the hole they're trying to replace
That empty spot filled with "their" piece, is forced...
Or even if it fits, it's a replica
I'll know it's not the same
And that feels bad. But I keep such bad feelings inside of me
For when other moments come, I'll have something to compare it too
To know if it's a good feeling
I ask myself if I'm worth that 9.50/hr
And it scares me I can't decide on an answer
That's why if I get cancer, just roll with it
No treatment, that costs money, go figure
This isn't what I want, six figures
Just so I can pretend I was saved. No way...
I'm drowning...
But you're not supposed to drink holy water
But would you to save me?
Cheers
[Outro: i]
And now that I'm dead
I can see what you mean to me
I can see in my daydreams
Much clearer than I ever could awake
It's way past our bedtime
I'll see you in the morning
I love you