[VERSE ONE- THE TOP CIVILIAN]
I've not been the same person since you've been gone
Haven't had the security of your couch to lean on
I was the great pretender trying to be strong
Pretending everything's alright, when inside it's all wrong
I don't want to sing the same songs that we sang together
Now there's no baritone to compliment my tenor
Whenever NASCAR was on we'd hit the Jerome Baker bong
And jam to Pink Floyd - damn, I miss you Shawn
You used to wrench on the S-10 looking all covered in tar
We entered a burnout contest in my sh**ty foreign car
I revved up the engine and the crowd started to scream
And we sped down the street at barely even 15
It seems like a dream, I remember taggin' on your table
Kickin' it as the days go by, we'd get high. But now your halo
Keeps me stable. Before you left I took life for granted
Now I wanna make you proud of the life I live; my hold you handed
[VERSE TWO- MC BREW]
Cornbeef would never represent you poorly
And that's for sure, SMB
That's the way we keep it
Accomplishments: you would seek them and then you'd reach them
Never would expect to be mourning you this evening
But this is in remembrance of good times and bad
I'm aghast. Remember when we would kick it and shoot the breeze in P.E. cla**?
From good homeboys to neighbors
Through all attitudes that wavered
To see that smirk up on your face is like a place away from danger
Now that you're gone, it feels wrong- changed up the whole flavor
Known you for over decade, we never had a chance to live throughout our best days
I've cried until I'm worn out, ‘cuz I know a part of me is torn out
And can't be replaced. It's all said and done
I know the light that was in your life shall reflect through your son
You were an artist and also a great cook
Feeling hardship now, but I gotta calm down
At the sky glance up and take a look. I feel God didn't want you
Unjustly stolen from us. It disgusts me I'm gloating over it
And it's tough...this song got me to open up
Hope this song is worthy
Hope you have mercy if you thought this wasn't dope enough
Rest in peace homie
[VERSE THREE- THE TOP CIVILIAN]
You were the first one I knew with a homemade tattoo
We witnessed two UFOs: our eyes proof it was true
Sometimes I get twisted, can't lift, emotions pressing
Find it depressing to be on antidepressants
But I can't let it get to me. From Sweet Fanny's to Perkins
Your hair changed to a mohawk, together we were workin'
Certainly never got the proper goodbye
So me and all your homies together we cried
You overflowed the Church. Bless your birth for what it's worth
I was too hurt to see you lowered in the dirt
My tear water burns and yearns for life with you
Until I end and see you again, Essence...I'll miss you
For all we've been through, blow a kiss to God
'Cause your my only refuge when the nights get long…you're gone…