Another depressing track about my love life
I used to relate to Slug when he said "love your life"
Now I'm too jaded for that ideology
Grown a** man with some childhood dreams
That I'll never complete, so now I rarely speak
Come to terms with the fact that God hates ugly
And certainly me, girls look at me strange
Always fidgitin' my fingers, man I'm out of place
Every time I make eye contact I look worried
I'm a man with problems, some deeply disturbing
I've earned these scars my psyche's carved on
The images stained, shame knifed into my arm
So much for confidence, right?
There's a reason I keep sleepin' alone at night
I awake to days as grey as the pen's paste
I spackle on a page to make words sound the same
And when I place 'em in formation it helps me forget
That tomorrow is sh** and I'm not lookin' forward to it
I forfeit , I quit, I'm done
Searchin' for new Coppertone under an old
I burned my soul when I stopped chasing those
Faces that burn holes with different chromosomes
Got enough problems on this lake doin' a backswim
Water gets added creating a sea of sadness
And I've been tryin' to swim upstream anyhow
Wishin' for a past flames ash tray now
Thinkin' back to when I had life all figured out
Becomin' less waterflow, more broken can*l
Here comes the water pressure
I've been watchin' build for what seems to be forever
Life, a little bit colder, a little bit wetter
It bites a little bit deeper with pulmonary dentures
No one ever told me not to venture too far
Miles out of town, can't spot where the people are
Its hard headed to think these women wanna sink
Their teeth into me after walkin' that far to meet me
And I was workin' on a greeting
A three sentence biography, everything about me
But I think I'll take this stone I found on the ground
Carve "Keep Out", raise it high and stand down
No need to fan flames now, even the charcoal's cold
I know you can't buy love with a bar code
I continue to try, this sickness and I
Are gonna sprint towards life until one of us dies
I found endurance under layers of plight
So I keep my struggles clockwise, at my bedside
To remind me why I strive for constant improvement in music
'Cus without this its useless
Haven't got my dick wet in years
But every time I try to compare myself and my peers
I know I've got a better career over the landscape
Plenty women's affection depends on what a man makes
If that's what it takes for love to retrace
I'd rather f** like a mantis than move at an ants pace
I want an escape and I find responsibility
I'm lonely as remorse and they're equally fillin' me
My pessimism's k**in' me day by day
I'm livin' out Ryan Leaf's play by play
I'm searchin' the scene for a similar human being
And every time I find one I awake from a dream
Open my eyes and I'm back in Corps school
Thinkin' "Maybe this DXM ain't really more food
For thought, but rather where I got my thoughts from"
Maybe I'm point A on point B's outcome
Maybe I should run away from myself
Fit into the thin skin of somebody else
Let it pa** through my epidermis into the cells
When they call me unique and say "Love yourself"
Love your life...
Love your life...
I think I'd rather die tonight..