[Chorus: unknown singer {w/ DMX ad libs}]
In the darkest days no rain that falls
Frees me from the life that calls
And all the things I need to find an answer for
But in the end I know I'll see
the truth in all that I believe
I do what I gotta do
Cause I know that this, is where I wanna be
[DMX]
Got a lot to say but don't know who to talk to
Step with a purpose, but don't know where to walk to
If anything I ever said, ever meant somethin
I know because the person I said it to, told me it meant somethin
My life has a meanin, my life has a purpose
No matter how dark it gets, I knew that it was worth it (what!)
fu*k what it looked like on the surface (c'mon!)
Seen it all but, not all heard us, like sometimes I was murderous (damn)
Can't expect everybody to get what you're doin
Can't expect them all to be with what you're doin
Don't give a fu*k if a muh'f**er hate me (nope!)
What you think it is ain't me, but what's good with you lately?
HATE when I sense this sh**
Tryin to make sense of this sh**, knowin that it's sensitive sh**
n***az so dumb, you don't even censor sh**
You said this sh**, so I KNOW you meant the sh** you senseless b*tch!
[Chorus]
[Big Stan]
Born with an addiction to fast livin, with high stakes
I race down the highway of life with no brakes
Make no apologies for the risks that I take
And mannin up to the repercussions that I face
No silver spoon, I was raised in a crowded room
Rarely seen the sun, faced a lot of gloom
I hit the streets too soon before 21
Been on the clock since, and on it 'til I'm done
I'm never clockin out, but always lockin in
I had a warm heart, lost a lot of friends
And losin them made me feel like I was drownin
So please forgive the chill I know you feel when you around me
Dreamed of livin right, big family, the picket fence
Grandkids I would get to share my story with
But here I am, livin bio as I stand ground
Just hope it doesn't end with shots fired, "Man down!"
[Chorus]
[DMX]
If I could bottle the inspiration, I'd be a billionaire
Straight f**in villain yeah, X baby still in here
I feel the air, I can smell the d**h in it
Y'all be left in it so f** it n***a, step wit it!
The walk is easy, the journey ain't worth nothin
That's why every day a n***a wanna hurt somethin
BUT, make progress, more or less
Cause if I can avoid the stress I can avoid the rest (c'mon!)
A n***a STAY dealin with the bullsh** daily (damn!)
n***az is worse than the b**hes, y'all hear me
Straight up, I'm FED UP! (WHAT!)
Have you sprayed up and wet up (WHAT!)
Now you laid up and won't get up
NOW look what the f** you done got yourself into
All I did was open the curtains and you jumped out the window
That's what s**ers do, just a punk motherf**er you
Got a n***a like "Motherf**er OOH!!"
[Chorus - 2X]
[Outro: DMX]
This is all I know [repeat to the end]