[Verse 1: Jon Connor]
On a bathroom wall I wrote
"I'd rather argue with you than be with someone else"
I took a piss and dismiss it like "f** it"
And I went and found somebody else
f** arguing and harvesting the feelings
Yo, I'd rather be by my f**ing self
Till about two a.m. and I call back
And I hang up and I start to blame myself
Somebody help...
You used to cry cause both your parents was addicts and your sister was ratchet
So I made it my mission to get you up out of that sh**
Probably my fault for trying to be a hero when I can't be
Or your fault for sending me DM's that said "Save me"
sh** I was trying, I know that we been had some ups and downs
At Xzibit house, found out you and some n***a f**ing now
Lied and said you told him about us and that he don't mess with you
Well if ya'll ain't f**ing, why the f** this n***a texting you
While you was sleeping I'd go and pick up your phone
And said "babe is you okay? And let me know when you coming home"
So I put you on a plane like I'm done with you
I fly back to Flint and I'm back in the back of the whip choking and f**ing you
I know you ain't getting this type of dick from that local dude
You was running game on me like this n***a was coaching you
I'm f**ing girls over while you was f**ing some other dude
In the beginning saw something in you, but that just wasn't you
Love no cost a thing, and that's why I wouldn't cheat
Western Union every week so you and your daughters could eat
Western Union every week so you and your kids could sleep
On a bed while your sister would throw you out on the street
Thought if I showed you California and the sh** that I was doing with the music
You would stop being so motherf**ing stupid
I wouldn't try to buy you, I tried to be by you
Wanted you and the girls to have a f**ing better life too
Came home for Christmas, I think it was on a Friday
Drive to your crib, homies' car was already in the driveway
I walked to the door, my future flashed before my eyes
I'm finally signed and I'm about to give it up over pride
See I just left Hawaii and now I'm standing in the hood arguing with a n***a over a b**h I was calling wifey
This n***a stood in front of you and said you was his side b**h, you still behind that n***a he looking at me like that's my b**h
Wanted to spazz, but we in somebody else's home
She kept telling me to leave cause she was already gone
1000 dollars in an envelope you can have it
I made sure you had it, even if I ain't had sh**
Always said "Jon we're living too different lives"
Ain't know that's an excuse for you f**ing two different guys
Outer beauty never hides the ugliness that's inside
Memories haunt my mind, but all I know is that I tried
Told you I'd leave you alone if you was really in love with him
We could never work cause you ain't never stop f**ing him
It all was a lie, regardless of how I felt
Now I see you for who you are, can't do nothing but blame myself
For Real..