I don't see why i'm addicted to the life that i've been living
Cus it has given, me a hard time for the longest time
Ever since I was Nothing more than four foot five or something
And ever since that time it's evolved around
Fitting in with the people I wanted to be around
But I found no reason I should stay around
And play their games another day I payed my dues
Collected cred from older dudes who I looked up to
Makes me sick and nauseous
Thinking of the things they made my shaddow do
Put my moodTo the test with an attitude
Never showed no signs of gratitude I was Mad at life so...
My temper reached its boiling point
Took me to the point of no return
Id make you burn Some lessons learned the harder way
Feel the pain I caused as I portray in a detailed way
As I try my best to maintain my cool in a lenient way
I almost drowned in a pool of alcohol
I hauled some a** and I Had to pull my weight
Through the open gates of the white walled clinic
I saw my faults and I admitted
To myself that I needed help, cus I went to far
When Acting a fool quickly got old
Should have stuck to script, cus I wasn't equipped
To calculate my fate with the risk that I was taking
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I just wanted
Something I can live for
Something I can fight for
Something I believe in
I just want more
Something I can fight for
Something I can die for
Something I can take in
I just want more
I dont know why im toying with the life that ive been given
Cus it has taken driven
Me a long way, just to get to home plate
Staying up late just to calibrate
My next maneuver you the judge
But I dont know if no one does
Really know how much it put the F in fright for me
I woke up, chocked up, hold up
Tell me, What has happened
What went down, You was found
Laying on the ground no one around
911 got a call, No time to stall
Glad they didn't cus As I left
They sayed It coulda been minutes
I was unconscious, a god damn Menace
Could have cost me all could have lost my attendance
And I don't know if that would have ever been worth it tho
The price I pay in the aftermath
Is looking back And knowing that
I'm here for a while, In need of a minute
Something to say I need to admit it
Whoever called it in, You should know I owe you
Sad that I never had the chance to look it up
And see who it was who called it in
Id hook you up, with a big as hug
Shown some love like you did that time
When you made that call, you saved my life
Let me sing for yours, Let me sing these words
I made my choice and hope i find
Something in time to fulfill dream
Im Glad im here I got