[Verse 1]
11 o'clock at night and I'm searching for dedication and purpose
Too f**ing nervous to check my notification
Cause I know, when I open it, the hope is hocus pocus
And I'm broken, we were talking to each other when I wrote this
And I just wipe away the tears in my ocular with a dollar
Now I'm screaming at the back of an opera
Jordan, comma, the commoner
With a bucket of Ramen to f**ing shove in me esophagus , I'm pigging like the officer
And see what happened is something that's sorta tragic
You thought that the sh** was magic, but it wasn't, now you're laughing
And I'm thinking of jumping up in a casket
You avoiding me like a f**ing arachnid
All I ever needed was a bit of attention, and didn't get it, but continued to listen to what you mentioned
n***a I listened to every bit of your sentence, but when I..
When I...
[Verse 2]
I can't even get out of bed
So many thoughts in my head, n***a, it's hard to forget
I got my face in the sink
And I don't even drink
Catch me staring at the ceiling, and I don't even blink. God!
I'm f**ing sick of this moping around the house with my mouth in a f**ing pout, and a heart full of doubt
So many tears lost, I'm stuck in a drought
My momma asking why my attitude sauer like kraut
I'm not trying to pick up a fight, I just really need to call you, cause I'm missing the light
This whole life thing ain't looking too bright
I'm not lying when I say this n***a miss you at night