Life is pain The prophecy was taught to me The way she stained my brain with venomous thoughts, I'll never write the same My homies asked me what hap I'm frontin' like she wasn't ish Just some p**y for my ish, I never liked the dame Knowin' behind closed doors, I was tryna wife the dame I'm talkin' kids and a picket fence No offense, but I'm quite ashamed When looking in your eyes & telling you lies But the lies explain the truth That was hidden beneath the grief I ignite the flame & turn it all to ashes Burnin all my pa**ion Wishin she would come back but her love is in the casket It died yesterday, and yesterday it never lasted And I'm too afraid to ask her… You been seein' another dude? (You seein' another n***a?!) I'm just a lover who's a fool for love Another noose tied around the neck of destiny I'm just another doomed… Reality It's Mallory, Michelle, Or Shayna, or maybe it was Whitney Gabrielle my savior I can't say though Play dough Mush me up and make mo' Right before she go, the lady change clothes Platos and Homers; Socrates philosophies Was travellin', she ain't there yet She rockin halos and crowns of thorns I was Coldhearted and young Dumb kid wit a tongue Silver tipped at the end Forty season the sin Found a reason to sin From the depths of the lonely Cuz the sentiment hollow & Affection was thin Without direction I spend Weeks and months in the slum Lookin' for something to love Lookin' for someone to spend A couple hours eternal But like inferno I burn It's like a maze in a circle The same corners you been The same streets that deplete Like the concrete is wind Ain't no lover for me Cause she said it to me
And never said it again Hard headed & lost I'll never let it again Touch my heart like a demon within Penetratin' the soul & demonstratin' the flow That expresses the angst hauntin' me like a ghost In the shell of my woes For a second I froze I reflected on she, and for that second, I'm home I can't say though Play dough Mush me up and make mo' Right before she go, the lady change clothes Platos and Homers; Socrates philosophies Was travellin', she ain't there yet She rockin halos and crowns of thorns Lovers found, and lovers lost Love me now, then love me not The pretty people play you while the ugly watch The hands on the clocks do tick tock The way she had a brother hooked Might as well cook her up & put her in a ziplock I loved you like hip-hop Felt blue like Crips rock And you sure turned everything backwards like Kris Kross Missed you, used to kiss you A couple of kids, two dogs, and a white picket fence She keep the crib locked, no entrance No penitence It got my mind stuck like gridlock Sometimes you lose yourself when you find love And I'm tryin' love, to forget you Wit my lids locked, wit my eyes closed And I'm trapped dreamin' of you like the time froze Make the pen hot from the pa**ion burnin' I think of you when I'm rollin' down Van Nuys and I'm pa**in' Vernon The pastor's sermon Predicted that the wicked would be inflicted with the truth The madness made me mad at myself Tryna forgive I can't say though Play dough Mush me up and make mo' Right before she go, the lady change clothes Platos and Homers; Socrates philosophies Was travellin', she ain't there yet She rockin' halos and crowns of thorns