Life is pain
The prophecy was taught to me
The way she stained my brain with venomous thoughts, I'll never write the same
My homies asked me what hap
I'm frontin' like she wasn't ish
Just some p**y for my ish, I never liked the dame
Knowin' behind closed doors, I was tryna wife the dame
I'm talkin' kids and a picket fence
No offense, but I'm quite ashamed
When looking in your eyes & telling you lies
But the lies explain the truth
That was hidden beneath the grief
I ignite the flame & turn it all to ashes
Burnin all my pa**ion
Wishin she would come back but her love is in the casket
It died yesterday, and yesterday it never lasted
And I'm too afraid to ask her… You been seein' another dude?
(You seein' another n***a?!)
I'm just a lover who's a fool for love
Another noose tied around the neck of destiny
I'm just another doomed…
Reality
It's Mallory, Michelle, Or Shayna, or maybe it was Whitney
Gabrielle my savior
I can't say though
Play dough
Mush me up and make mo'
Right before she go, the lady change clothes
Platos and Homers; Socrates philosophies
Was travellin', she ain't there yet
She rockin halos and crowns of thorns
I was Coldhearted and young
Dumb kid wit a tongue
Silver tipped at the end
Forty season the sin
Found a reason to sin
From the depths of the lonely
Cuz the sentiment hollow
& Affection was thin
Without direction I spend
Weeks and months in the slum
Lookin' for something to love
Lookin' for someone to spend
A couple hours eternal
But like inferno I burn
It's like a maze in a circle
The same corners you been
The same streets that deplete
Like the concrete is wind
Ain't no lover for me
Cause she said it to me
And never said it again
Hard headed & lost
I'll never let it again
Touch my heart like a demon within
Penetratin' the soul & demonstratin' the flow
That expresses the angst hauntin' me like a ghost
In the shell of my woes
For a second I froze
I reflected on she, and for that second, I'm home
I can't say though
Play dough
Mush me up and make mo'
Right before she go, the lady change clothes
Platos and Homers; Socrates philosophies
Was travellin', she ain't there yet
She rockin halos and crowns of thorns
Lovers found, and lovers lost
Love me now, then love me not
The pretty people play you while the ugly watch
The hands on the clocks do tick tock
The way she had a brother hooked
Might as well cook her up & put her in a ziplock
I loved you like hip-hop
Felt blue like Crips rock
And you sure turned everything backwards like Kris Kross
Missed you, used to kiss you
A couple of kids, two dogs, and a white picket fence
She keep the crib locked, no entrance
No penitence
It got my mind stuck like gridlock
Sometimes you lose yourself when you find love
And I'm tryin' love, to forget you
Wit my lids locked, wit my eyes closed
And I'm trapped dreamin' of you like the time froze
Make the pen hot from the pa**ion burnin'
I think of you when I'm rollin' down Van Nuys and I'm pa**in' Vernon
The pastor's sermon
Predicted that the wicked would be inflicted with the truth
The madness made me mad at myself
Tryna forgive
I can't say though
Play dough
Mush me up and make mo'
Right before she go, the lady change clothes
Platos and Homers; Socrates philosophies
Was travellin', she ain't there yet
She rockin' halos and crowns of thorns