You were convulsing in the next room, so I lay awake in bed And prayed to a God that I don't believe in so that he may keep you safe I could hear our father's fingers work their way into the wood of your door frame Mother shaking, as your eyes rolled back into your head again Just as we thought d**h would prevail, febrile response gave way to pale Cavities to fingernails, anxiety has left me frail But I left then how I feel now Despite the detriment you've faced, it is your warmth that made me proud
And though I barely remember, it was you who soothed my ache In the depth of my depression, I thought my life was mine to take I am forever in your debt for things that you could never say All the love that I have felt, you gave with no intentions to take I am as the moon, any affection that my glow is the subject of belongs to you For I am nothing more than a reflection of you And your love