You were convulsing in the next room, so I lay awake in bed
And prayed to a God that I don't believe in so that he may keep you safe
I could hear our father's fingers work their way into the wood of your door frame
Mother shaking, as your eyes rolled back into your head again
Just as we thought d**h would prevail, febrile response gave way to pale
Cavities to fingernails, anxiety has left me frail
But I left then how I feel now
Despite the detriment you've faced, it is your warmth that made me proud
And though I barely remember, it was you who soothed my ache
In the depth of my depression, I thought my life was mine to take
I am forever in your debt for things that you could never say
All the love that I have felt, you gave with no intentions to take
I am as the moon, any affection that my glow is the subject of belongs to you
For I am nothing more than a reflection of you
And your love