now you don't see me
I have closed my eyes
but now I am lost
you closed your eyes
despair dancing in my heart
as I ran to escape my tears
I, I am alone, there is no God where I am
rise, the memories
now, I'm far away
feel, it's all so useless
I, I blame life for all this
I'm jealous, coming to grief
sometimes I'm not afraid
sometimes I wish you my pain
and sometimes I hate
and if I was a cat
I would stare all the time
with depth in my eyes
right into your stars
time flashes in your eyes
something bigger than life