[Verse: Byron]
Your last words to me were peace, instead of peace of mind
Now it's really hard to breathe because you didn't reach your prime
Time and time again, I try to think of a different scenario
And how much better we were than what you hear on a radio
But, now it seems like it's all on me
We built a wall and now I'm watching it fall on me
Whenever you needed to vent, you would call on me
So the thought of something having changed has my heart on E
Whether you never had the chance, it's fine
But you have to understand
Right now, I'm in a different state of mind
I did my first show with Coast 2 Coast
Hoping it'll take us coast to coast
Still trying to learn the ropes of a crooked industry
But no longer trying to k** the game
I'm trying to manipulate it in order to bring change for the better
My first show in New Orleans, but now nothing is the same but the weather
Sporadic as my brain
Make magic through my pain
Because I just took a blade through the heart
So I'm on the edge of a cliff just awaiting end
How dare you switch my fate with my best friend's
I used to try to pretend I never saw that ish
Which is probably what caused this itch to make an impact
And practically brace myself for the fall that ends my entire career
Nevermind y'all, that's it
Never cared about money or fame
We were just tired of being chained to the same stereotypical lanes we were given
In '07, something changed
It seems venting through pain just became an elixir
And now it's Vital Remains
Love is life, life is love when you play your cards right
It's a shame, because y'all want music while I'm still trying to heal
If you don't want the best for me, then what part of you is real?
Marshall Mathers is the greatest to me
Brad Jordan is a close second
I flow reckless because both of their last solo LPs felt like they both helped me
A lot of respect and admiration
And for the sake of Marina and I's dream to stay alive
I hate it had to be me, but one of us has to make it
I try to make you proud
But this anger takes a toll on me, and only you could rid it
Monica was just a mistake, and I admit it
Valeria was changing so quick, I didn't get it
Hali left without a word, and I was livid
Bristin is the third crush that I've ever had
Even though depression has pretty much been my girl for the last decade
I'm rapping this now, just in case it's my last essay
My happiness drowned
Even though I imagine on the day that you died, I came saving you
I have to face facts, my heart is stuck in that grave with you
So as my fanbase begins to grow
I can't forget the biggest fan I know
You would tell people Byron's the bomb, plain and simple
Imagine if I blew up on the eleventh of September
Strike a nerve, don't it
Come up behind Kendrick and throw a spear at the omen
I don't hang with dudes because of how h*mophobic and prideful y'all are
Then act like you don't know it
Finally mustering up the strength to say F Bonnabel and King too
I'm here to bring you emotion I know
But now, I think of what'll happen to me
Because people seem to be acting to me
But Novelle, you're my G
Marina sweetie, it'll always be love
Nayzia, I look at you like it's blood
Shout out to Chris Hart
I pray that you go far
But, I also pray the feeling is mutual
It's too often I see a kid with a bright future go astray
Just like a bullet that's mistakingly flying right through you
Don't want you or Hailey to be a victim
Whatever you're going through, you're strong enough to fight through it
I wish I could say the same for myself
To this day, I still blame myself
It amazes me to know how bad people like Amber want Obama and family out of office
Simply due to color, and resort to name calling
But I was there when people bullied you for having cerebral palsy
You should know how it feels by now
Listen, man none of this is real to me
We don't need social media dog, it needs us
We don't need to buy Jordan's either, we need love
Someone tell KXNG CROOKED I took heed
But Lord knows, it'll take more than me
I'd rather die now; Boxed in, but outspoken
My whole life is recorded, without a promise broken
I'm kind of hoping this gives you a better understanding of where I am coming from
When I say this is hard to handle
Because with my anger problems, you just like to tempt me
But if your gla** is always full, I know your life is empty
I don't want to be this way
When Rina died, I never thought I would see this day
But if she can survive through me, that's fine with me
I just don't want see the day Aaliyah dies, believe
Look in my eyes, tell me there's more inside
Used to have a friend named Chelsea
But knowing I was too mentally detached, I never asked about going out
Jeremy's the homie that I really don't know about
Besides skate boarding, and collecting your sneakers, what are you into?
I don't know much about anything that you've been through
Claven is the homie
But again, we can't relate much
You smoke, I don't smoke
I don't say much
I just do what I can to get by, and to stop these thoughts I have of just dying
To everybody listening
Don't be surprised if you hear about Byron hanging with his best friend again
Listen dog, if I said it, I meant it
Took a minute to gather my thoughts, then came in to spit it
And Meagan, just remember that pigs can fly
But some will never make it to heaven for taking a life
Was that swine flu or not, times two?
Don't get me wrong, the homie Claven can rhyme too
But I wonder why dudes around my age never commit to speaking on the same subject that I do
Logic is flawed
You just have get your record on the shelf
Staying true to the radio, instead of to yourself
We did it for the art, in order to change hearts
While you're looking for the plug, I'm in dire need of a spark
Where am I to go from here?
Might as well take a chance and go for broke from here
I need to find an escape route just like Joe
I love Mr. Ortiz, but please
I already took an L, I don't know if I can take one more
A peace sign was the last I saw
I just woke up to some Nickle Nine, then I saw Rina's picture
Ironically but differently, she took a part of me with her
Nothing about Angel is angelic
But I know a few guys when we dated were mad jealous
I know, it's much harder to love than hate
But just imagine if we dated with my head on straight, nah
And I can't forget Kelsey
How is being jealous of Rina supposed to help me?
You never showed the slightest bit of compa**ion because of a talent show at King?
I can't fathom the reason you hated Rina so much being because the same song was performed
And only one of you smashed it
I thought we were all cool
But you proved otherwised by letting it fall through
F it, all I wanted was effort
I would give you an "A"
But since you wanted the "D" from Adil every single day
And never helped me, though I was there every step of the way
This ship sunk, and I let it
It's not love, it's lust
Know the difference before you begin to trust
I'm giving you my all right now
The same reason everyone is getting bars right now
Stephanie was my second crush
But all I was ever sensing was tension
Since then, a possible friendship was mended
People were pretentious till they saw me open for Coast 2 Coast
I had the crowd in the palm of my hand before I even ended
Little did I know, artists would stop me to say how great I was, and I unofficially win
Which to me, honestly meant about 10 times more than the actual win did
Never cared about winning at all
Spoke about it briefly, but this was for my best friend
Shout out to Roze with a "Z", k**ing it dog
We're good over here, you can hear the applause
This is real so, all I'm asking is for y'all to keep it real yo
How would you feel to actually know how I feel though?
I'm not a comedian, I don't find ish funny anymore
But I'm about to grab that key and peel bro
I feel so sick to my stomach
Danny Mixtape gave me the ball
And now I'm eternally running with it
I don't run the city; actually, it's the opposite
I'm running from my city cause I'm tired of it
I'm like royalty around y'all
Down to fall for the people I feel are as loyal as me
Which is probably why loyalty is my downfall
Royce set it in stone dog, I know I'm flawed
And I accept it
Because when I'm unable to express myself, I become reckless
And that just affects my health, leaving me restless
Until I reach a point in my life where I say F this
And lash out at the only friend that I have left
Till I'm left with nothing, except a potential d**h wish
Better off dead so I don't have a regret filled coffin on the day I depart
I feel like it's less than often when I'm living, I actually feel alive
I'm partially living, but still I feel numb inside
And it's driving me up the wall
Like the on/off switch for my emotion
But it's mostly off that all y'all get
I'm giving you my all right now
The same reason everyone is getting bars right now
The very same reason this record should be taken as dying words
Every noun and verb
Look at it like it's what I deserve
Better yet, look at it like it's my final verse
And when you think of me
Think of honesty, not the curse
I can't see a better finale for me
Rather be honest, then to have you think badly of me
This music, I'm done with it
The reason Young Thug sells more than Big K.R.I.T. is because every single kingdom still has a slum village
So have fun with it
I could never compromise our prophecy and run with it because
[Hook: Aposoul]
Ohhh, I'm on this road
I'm on my own, and I'm lost again
(I'm lost again)
And I say
Ohhh, I just don't know
I can't let go, or I'll fall again
(I'll fall again)
Just take me home...