[Verse 1: Danny Bravo]
My pen and pad playing therapist
I drift away in my thoughts
My friends asking me where I've been
I'm disappearing a lot
My family says I'm scaring them
I'm the only one that they got
My girl's saying that she's leaving me
And I can't convince her to stop
So it seems like I'm all alone, I'm alright being on my own
But it's hard being underdogs when nobody throws you a bone
And I got a lot of emotions I'm trying never to show
So I'm trapped in this gla** house but I'm sitting here throwing stones
And I'm asking a lot of questions, certain things don't make sense to me
I've learned a lot of lessons, not in calculus or chemistry
I know that diabetics have a lower life expectancy
I'm living for the moment, what the f** would you expect from me?
Cause I've seen my cousin leave before his time
He was only 21, I never even said goodbye
And that proves tomorrow ain't promised to anyone alive
And I could be next to die
But I know that my problems are only burdens and this pain is only hurting
Cause I'm trying to go be perfect but homie, I'm only person
So for those who ask me where I've been, I've been alone and working
That way when I make it, you can't say that I don't deserve it
[Hook: Jeano]
I reflect on the page, oh
And I wonder where the days go
My mind flies but I stay low
I slow down and I drift away (2x)
[Verse 2: Danny Bravo]
It's an impossible obstacles that I'll never get over
Losing my best friend, losing another soldier in the battle
Now I'm rattled and I can't move
It's hard to say goodbye, even harder if you never get the chance to
It's not fair, I'm trapped in this nightmare
I don't know how I got here but I'm sitting in your bedroom and you're not there
But I can feel you, you're here
Down my face streams tears
Feels like it was only yesterday, it's really been years
So the only thing to do is reminisce and say "cheers"
Like a goal scored but no more reason to celebrate
Until the very day I levitate to Heaven's gates
And they say that life ain't it seems, well this must be what they mean
Cause it's all so surreal like I'm in a movie scene
Now the only time you're seen is when you visit in my dreams
And I pray I don't awake, somebody's made a mistake
So much pain and we ache, so many tears at your wake
I look in your mother's eye and I see the pain in her face
Like damn Frank, you were great, now it's all put in perspective
My family comes first, everything else is second
So give me all the money in the world, I got enough of that
Give me all the fame and all the girls, I got enough of that
Let me win the lottery, really what kind of luck is that?
I just want my cousin back
[Hook: Jeano]
[Verse 3: Danny Bravo]
I look in the mirror and start reflecting
On all the circumstances I was blessed with but rejected
Now I'm much wiser and I can put it in perspective
But I was destined for the dejection that manifested
When I realized I was manic depressive, the panic set in
Like I can't accept it, this shouldn't happen, I'm just a damn kid
Travelled to the bathroom cabinet for the medicine to better it
Instead it just lessened my adolescence
All he ever knew was pain, you can feel it in his diction
But something real is missing when you struggle with a pill addiction
Losing weight cause I can't eat
Losing faith in humanity
Losing my battle with insanity. putting stresses on my family
Suicidal fantasies man-handle me
My count down was moving
Because I know that no parent wants to bury their child, but I was bound to prove it
'Til I found this music, used to say I won't amount to sh**
Now I'll amount to an amount so high, they can't count to it
Middle fingers up to anybody that doubted it
Cause nowadays everything is golden like an alchemist
Bravo
[Hook: Jeano]
[Outro: Danny Bravo]
So is this what the top feels like?
Or is this not real life?
Or am I only getting started?
Will I ever be the greatest? Man you god damn right
I've never been in a spot this bright
So I guess I have to rock this mic
Cause I know you only get one shot at this life
I guess this is what the top feels like