Intro:
Carpe Diem, 2014
Verse / Astonish:
I never thought I'd be the guy that wasn't good enough
Heh, I guess I was wrong cause when it came this broad
I was weak, fallen, torn down and roaming these streets
Seeking for guidance when really all I needed was leave
Oh silly me for even thinking we could be something
Cause girl you're hot as an oven but looks can really mean nothing
And girl you're cold as the summit, I'm right at its peak
I'm 'bout to jump off the ledge cause all I seek is the sea
It's really deep, no one reach for the pills and then swallow
We onto many forgotto, we leave them all to the gallow
How much it really cost to be strapped and in lust?
The only problem is lost, the only drama is caused
By the fighting and strifing, we on to brighten, enlighten
All the stones in my body, I'm ready to become outty
I'm on to new sh**, my new grips are outta my posse
Hold up bricks and bugattis, I work with 10 to 10 hotties
I give a damn about Holly's, I'm popping mollies with Molly's, trick
Tearing tracks, I'm done with the social act
I'm ready to come intact, I'm on to the grind and rap
It's a fact, mind the back, Jack, the front's too packed
Leather endeavors or whether I pull the lever to map
All the processes, promises, provinces, yeah the squad is thick
Riding solo dolo yolo but I still feel the opposite
I'm alone on this earth but the world's my metropolis
All the people lack common sense, so I reign, he astonishes
Hook / Astonish:
So I reign, he astonishes
So I reign, he astonishes all
So I reign, he astonishes
So I reign, he astonishes all
Verse / Trust Issues:
Pacing down the halls like I'm k**ing some time
I put my life on the line but nothing ever feels right
I take a look in the mirror to see if I can see light
But all I see is dark shadows creep up on me at night
I'm away from home, I left my girl alone
Maybe that's the sole reason that I'm feeling so cold
If you were my shoes you'd be feeling my soul
If you knew trust issues, god damn you would fold
Cause it's hard to trust someone who's shown you you can't
And it's hard to give second chances like this again
And it's even harder to believe that she ain't doing nothing
When I leave, just breathe let it ease
Feel the pain, let it leave
Cause nothing ain't ever as it seems
People put on a front so then you will believe
Then you become naive and you buy all the lies
So maybe next time put your pride aside
What's it like to have trust issues right?
Ain't that always the question?
People say their true but then they leave you second guessing
So cut out the middle man and don't let it happen
Put your head down son and just stick with the rapping
Cause one day, it'll make you a star
But what's the point if people ain't gon' love you for who you are?
They'll just love you for what you have
Man what's it all worth?
If I had a million dollars boy I wouldn't say a word
Only God would know
Only God would show sympathy, understanding and power doe
Never trust any other cause their all gon' crack
One way or another no one ever has your back
--But that, right? Let's just go get high
And pretend we're the best of homies all of our lives
Then don't have each other's backs when we get into fights
Leave the other one to dry cause we're cowards inside
It's funny right cause their supposed to be there to help
But sometimes it only seems like their tearing me down
With a side of you're a nothing and what you speak is all bologna
But for those of you who know me, you know I never felt so lonely
I'm lonely, and I guess that's how it stays
When you live in a dream, everything is so fake
And everyone is so fake, yeah everything that they say
Is just a big lie just to make up their name
When will it end? When will the sh** reality cease?
So I can start living out my fantasy
And leave it all behind like they did the streets
I'm the same damn kid, I just learned a few things
What's it like to have trust issues?