"Call me. It's your mother. Your f**ing girlfriend keeps ignoring my calls. That dumb b**h can't loan me fifteen dollars I was gonna spend on eggs and a little pot to keep you fed. But whatever, f** her. You can do better than that snotty b**h anyway. Whatever. Call me back. I need money." - Ben's mother
"May is not those things. What are you even saying? She has been upright but not so understanding. Mother, you are wrong. Yeah I think you are wrong, but it's real hard to think. My brain's never been too strong. I am coming down right now. I cannot see past my own veiny arms and bloody eyes. I've run out of alibis. May is beautiful. Now I can remember. You are so high that you cannot comprehend her. Mother, you are wrong. Yeah I know you are wrong, but it's real hard to think cause I've been going all along, doing things that aren't things I used to do at all, seeing things that don't exist in any shape or form. I don't know how I got here. I am full of fear because I have been wrong all along. I said I missed your call, but I missed ten. Roger read it all again. What remains of your letter's in the garbage bin. The rest I tried to burn. I am tired of not wanting anything, but I have no clue what to think. I have no clue how to think. I am just a huge mistake. Everything was a mistake. I have no more pills to take. May, you're beautiful. What was I even saying? You have been upright. I wasn't understanding." – Ben