[VERSE 1]
Doctor, I'm surprised I ain't dead
From all the times I told myself that I'd be better off dead
But I'm alive and it's all, because of what my friends said
From all the times they told me that I'd be better off alive
See, I've got to thank my boys
Yeah
Thanking my boys
Gotta thank Alex, Noah, Oliver, Gregori, and Ron
They made feel better so I stay on
When I'm dwindling
Doing nothing in my studio
And open FL studio
Feeling
Particular so
Rap about how I feel, I gotta say although
I act like a douche, I'm always grateful so
I'll be this better person oh
Cause this is this time that we are winning bro
So let's just
Cut to the chase
I feel bad cus I ain't there, misplaced
When he hits me up in the DMs, it's like he's got grace
And the fact I ain't there makes me ashamed to be in my place
If I knew him, man, I'd say it to his f**ing face
He's the best friend ever and this is what I'd say
Alex, listen to me and keep going
Truth is I should be helping you growing
But instead I'm too busy writing, never outgoing
You the nicest person on this race so keep going
You should know it
And Hyun, listen to me
You are the best man that you could ever be
You make me sad when you say your music is less than beast
I mean, take that from the f**ing sh**ty amateur MC
(yeah)
[VERSE 2]
At this moment I feel like im preaching to the choir
Declaring I'm loving it like a McDonald's flyer
I mean, she's so beautiful
I'm glad I can spend the time with her
But recently I feel like this romance thing is a blur
Taking moves on her like an amateur
Maybe you don't obsess over me as much as you infer
And I hope she don't listen to my raps so the truth don't occur
Started a streak on Snapchat just so I have an excuse to talk
Have an excuse to walk
Man, her feelings are in a deadlock
And if she ever heard how I felt I'd be a laughing stock
Man, she won't ever hear, cuz I just lo-
Wait, what if she hears?
I guess I just don't have the guts to say it
I guess in the end I'm just a hypocrite
I guess it's my time to throw a fit
Complain about how her boyfriend don't care the least bit
Hide all my emotions in my layers of wit
I know, I know, I know
I'm just a f**ing dick
But music is the only time when people listen to me
Its the only place where I can truly be free
So I'll complain so much and pretend that they agree
When in the end all the fault is really truly on me
I don't f**ing care if I don't win this competition
Cus I only ever did this to complete my mission
To make people hear how I'm feeling in admiration
Look at me at anything other than a failed creation
Preach it