[Intro: Sampled]
Sometimes we notice coincidences like, "Oh there were a couple of cars on the street" and we just move on and forget about it
But for someone with Schizophrenia these experiences take on a vastly different kind of feeling
You might notice there were 3 red cars on the street and instead of just forgetting about it you start thinking
"Well why is there 3 red cars on the street, maybe it has something to do with me? Maybe these people are coming to harm me"...
[Verse 1: Braidz]
Sit in awe of the art and just listen
As I'm pouring my heart through the system
You see I'm so Paranoid I rarely get around
In the last 3 years I've barely left the house
Old friends like, "Come out man, let's drink some shots"
I'm like "Nah man, I don't think I can take it off"
Straight lying - 'cause I don't even have a job
No house, no direction and over Twenty One
Man, I just want my head to somehow work with me
Starting to lose Patience like a run down surgery
Struggling for a feed off some cents that I don't make
Everyone say's the new centerlink laws sound like a joke ay
But they've always called me a f**in' joke too
These wolves in sheep's clothing just go with the flow dude
My aim's a career not a job but my tolerance has ran out
So I'm putting everything into music I'm just hoping that i'll stand out
[Chorus: Mista Hood]
Part of me wants to be
Part of me wants to see
But part of me is all of me
And all of me is Paranoid
X2
[Verse 2: Braidz]
Now I'm Paranoid about my chick's too, Mad because I wish dude
I never would have gone where it began, see this sh**'s true
My first love? She f**ed me, I mean literally fu*kED me!
Had a gang-bang with three dudes came home said she loved me
That's the type of sh** that leaves you mentally scarred
That's the type of sh** that you may never get past
That's the type of sh** that leads to Heroin, Shard
Stepping in bars with Eccy's to pa** 'round 'cause your dead in the heart
Everyone asks why I'm like this - well there's the reason
Thought I'd solve it leaving dudes with their heads all bleeding
So I took a bat to the scene, and bashed up some teens
But I ended up feeling more crap when I leaved
Leaved? I mean left, like I did to that scumbag
Saw black and lashed out but it just left me with cutbacks
Now I forever watch the movements of any chick I'm with
I'm constantly feeling played and just wanting to slit my wrist 'cause a-...
[Chorus: Mista Hood] x2
[Verse 3: Braidz]
My aim's to grace the stage in nations places you have never seen...
So while you chase big dreams, I chase big memories
I stay crafting these bars, always hoping that I'll make it
'Cause the only time I feel good is at shows or in the basement
But, players are hating 'cause I came up on gay sh**
They can't accept the fact that now I'm making my name stick
'Til they go back on their word like I literally played it
Wordplay for days you just didn't get what Braidz spits
This version of success isn't what I envisioned it just makes stress
Sick of these lame heads who just listen to what their mates said
Tell me my song's sh** before they even think to play it
Blacklisted by my scene using the internet to make it...
Then again that's probably in my head as well
But doctor's give me med's, and they never help
I know it's in my mind I know I need to get out more
From this day forward I won't let this disease be my downfall!
[Chorus: Mista Hood] x2