[Verse 1]
Another black n***a raised without a father
Kids called me ba*tard, I was raised by my Momma
Grew up in the ghetto, I was fazed by the drama
Soul tainted by the devil, now it's d**h before dishonor
I ain't have no guidance, when I get mad, I resort to violence
Fighting n***as on the corner, then run when I hear the sirens
My mind is stuck in cycle, that a knife and a rifle
Should be used against you if I really didn't like you
Why you lie to me when all I want is truth?
Why you couldn't understand the pain that I was going through?
Why you never came all the times you said you coming through?
It's not just me, man, my Momma said she hate you too
How you supposed to be a father and can't lend a helping hand?
Every time you make a child, you run off and disappear
Are you scared to be a man? Do you wanna face your fears?
Am I worthy as your son? Sometimes I just wanna grab a gun and just.... (run away)
[Hook]
Sometimes life can be depressing
My Momma stressing 'cuz I got arrested
Tryna fit in and get accepted because I was neglected
By my father who was never there since adolescence
As a child, I was affected, the pain wasn't expected
Now I'm running wild, being reckless
But I calmed down for a second and thought about my blessings. Now I'm writing this music, sending a message...
[Verse 3]
My little sister's looking up to me
There's no such thing as giving up to me
Good role model, no liquor bottle and luxuries
But I'm smoking like I work at the tobacco company
Puffin' on a cigarette to k** the stress
Nicotine in my breath, the hennesy heal the rest
Feel the world is on my back, gotta get this off my chest
L'm writing rhymes, reciting raps, just to keep my mind intact
And every line applying facts to my twisted reality
A gifted personality. I'm still waiting on my father
Is he coming back for me?
Momma said you don't amount to half of me
Since I'm her only son under the sun, I listen carefully
She carried me for nine months, always took good care of me
And all you ever did was embarra** me
By never being there for me
Now I elevate my soul spiritually
The man I am today, you couldn't even compare to me
[Hook]
Sometimes life can be depressing
My Momma stressing 'cuz I got arrested
Tryna fit in and get accepted because I was neglected
By my father who was never there since adolescence
As a child, I was affected, the pain wasn't expected
Now I'm running wild, being reckless
But I calmed down for a second and thought about my blessings. Now I'm writing this music, sending a message...
[Bridge]
Father, as your son, I just wanted to be the one to walk in your shoes
Someone I could learn from, the one who dropped j**els. Teach me about life and inspire me in school
Love thy wife and she shall love you
Share with me the wisdom from a wise man's view
And it hurts to say that I don't know you
Look what I've been through. Should I just.... (run away)
[Hook]
Sometimes life can be depressing
My Momma stressing 'cuz I got arrested
Tryna fit in and get accepted because I was neglected
By my father who was never there since adolescence
As a child, I was affected, the pain wasn't expected
Now I'm running wild, being reckless
But I calmed down for a second and thought about my blessings. Now I'm writing this music, sending a message...