Intro
I hear voices in my head saying all kind of things….
I swear to God I don't understand em'
(verse 1)
I'm battling demons
Same thing that happened to Steven
It's hard to believe in
Bravery I'm loosing the feeling
I'm counting sheep jus to go to bed
It might be more than complicated
My life ain't as dope as it seems
Sometimes I feel like I'm making too much excuses
Excuse me "I was way too young"
That's another excuse
How do I tell if I am loosing
Or if pushing me way too hard
Should I be getting ma juice
My soul is trapped in another age
I pray it ain't hell
That'll be a bigger baggage
6 foot cell
Punishment for being carnage
Or maybe for being Savage
Don't mind me I'm being honest
Self-esteem on zero
Who could be the hero
I pray to God he make the beat speak
through Brilo
Seem to question everything else
We think that we know
Is everything the way it really it seems
Man foreal tho
(Hook)
Did I let myself down
(did I let myself down)
Did I let myself down
(did I let myself down)
Did I let myself down
[I'm tranna battle Self-Doubt]
(verse 2)
Pills and potions
Deals extortions if you feel
Dat intercourse dat hit da cause
Had to heel dat
Worthless self that stayed in the past
There's a reason I hate myself Not!
Pity i dropped dat
My family is not a family it's dysfunctional
I'm not accepting the service if it's correctional
I'm rational now
I cleared my mind of emotion now
My life is crazy
Sometimes I only wish all this was fictional
But Damn this is real life
How can I be a better person
I need more hype
I thought I had to chase the money
Then I missed flights
Ben10 with no power only ten fingers
no watch
How can I use my five fingers combined
Without masturbating
First I went all out
then decided rapping
Grab a gun and
shot exactly where I was aiming
I thought I saw a vision of Jesus
with eyes flaming
I'm being blinded by the ghosts in the past
I try to sprint while running
But I couldn't run fast
I keep looking back to whose chasing
But I'm swallowing dust
I'm a citizen here on earth
But y'all treat me like a freaking guest
(Hook)
Did I let myself down
(did I let myself down)
Did I let myself down
(did I let myself down)
Did I let myself down
[I'm tranna battle Self-Doubt]
(verse 3)
Stepping stones on other levels
got me switch my feeling
Don't be scared when you approach
i chased the demons it's still me
Time is money if I'm wasting yours then please don't k** me
If the holy ghost exist
then this the moment fill me
.......
Who could ever thought that a ngga without nothing will be standing on the top of the skyscraper
Who could ever thought that a ngga could start something, we'll infact the DNA is of a born rapper
I got the sun in my pocket
stars in my drawer
If you talking paper
then ngga I'm boutta show up
Yellow got me telling ma nggas
to neva slow up
Poodie got me flexing on exes I never blow up