"[1]
Yesterday I had to check myself a couple times—
Write a couple rhymes
Hit my brother line
Ask if it's another sign
I ain't had enough of trying
But I'm wearing down
Feels like another obstacle I'm staring down
And I feel like sharing now
So I tell him how I feel
He feel me and he tell me, “That's how everybody feel.”
And I know it, but I wanna wallow just a little longer—
Stay up on the phone until I feel a little stronger
Judge me if you wanna. I ain't got a worry
Tomorrow is another day. I ain't tryna hurry
Vision kind of blurry. Hoping to see better
Better see the better in the day before it's “Yes to…”
[2]
Last night I bought a bottle, and prob'ly shouldn't be saying it
I ain't drink it, but think it's a metaphor for my day
It's the way it can make you feel
Like nothing's really a deal
The pleasure and the appeal
Is waiting behind the seal
Just break it open and guzzle it
Feel it, and then say “f** it.”
Since nothing is permanent, my sobriety had it's turn and it's time
Resigned to the life that I live now
My cup is filled up, I don't want it to spill out
To see it pouring down the drain is therapeutic
I know it sounds insane to say I never want to do it again
But still spend what I earned to make that purchase
That kind of temptation is dangerous. Is it worth it?"