[Hook]
I'm alive, I'm alive
Its' a blessing 'cause the devils in disguise
In disguise, and he's tryna' throw it in my f**in' life
Tryna' whipe me out like a genocide, genocide
Every f**in' day and night
[Verse 1]
I look back into my past
My life was tenure tended to drag
No more gestures in a defensive stance
My grandfather died last year it was sad
My heart is made of stone ready to blast
With no hope to reverse the bad in fact
I feel alone and mad not able to stand
All I have left now is this pen in my hand
Then you got the fake friends that always pretend
Like they got your back man you gotta put that sh** to an end
Fake people come with change you gotta stay very aware
They want to plant your feet in the ground beware
They bring you down till you feel like your goin' nowhere
In life some things can never make sense or be understood
My intentions are good cold I stood like any real man would
But I've seen friends turn enemies and enemies turn friends
I am sure rivals still be temptin' me when this earth ends
[Hook]
I'm alive, I'm alive
Its' a blessing 'cause the devils in disguise
In disguise, and he's tryna' throw it in my f**in' life
Tryna' whipe me out like a genocide, genocide
Every f**in' day and night
[Verse 2]
If the pain I had had to happen for a reason
How come the world is falling as I am feeling?
My body reeking my soul feels like its bleeding
Day in and Day out hoping things will change
I'm going insane and I write to clear my brain
Because it affects it, It's just these walls are infected
I'm just as bad to blame because the pain got me effected
The only thing you can keep "close" are friends at a distance
Life is just a dream because your closest people can become distant
And I hate to sound persistent when I speak about what I been through
But I speak the truth and nothing but the truth my inside bleeds blue
There's been no help ensued and it feels like my last pursuit
Take the time to hear my lines, my rhymes are the proof
People that keep on saying I never been in struggle
Broke but Moms and Pops wallet ain't a option I hustle
Is suicide whats right for me?? At night I cry privately
Asking God why I got left alone, disowned set to die in privacy
[Hook]
I'm alive, I'm alive
Its' a blessing 'cause the devils in disguise
In disguise, and he's tryna' throw it in my f**in' life
Tryna' whipe me out like a genocide, genocide
Every f**in' day and night
[Verse 3]
It's a bad mans world, can be so dark and cold
Tryna' keep my soul, but feels like its already sold
I'm gettin' tired and my body is just feeling old
I must've died, then I woke up, surprised I'm alive
The rhymes of pain I write are a lyrical genocide
It's a dirty game nothing nice, no gimmicks, know why?
I've been around hoes bad motherf**ers that sold ice
The devil is in disguise my life is filled with lies
Every day and night I pray to survive tryna' stay alive
[Hook]
I'm alive, I'm alive
Its' a blessing 'cause the devils in disguise
In disguise, and he's tryna' throw it in my f**in' life
Tryna' whipe me out like a genocide, genocide
Every f**in' day and night