[Verse 1]
I sit at rock bottom and reminisce about the past
Gotta figure out the way I got into this circumstance
It's possibly monotony thats gotten me hypnoticly robotic
With my psychology, so don't bother me
It's a problem that I don't know how to cope with
I'm hopeless, meaning I hope less to notice it
I'm so depressed, over-dosing-is-normally rou-tine
N anti-depressents, are handy-when-d**h is crucial to me
Cuz I don't know who to be, Shane or Basick
Part of me begs for normality, the other hates it
I pace in, a concentrated contemplation of it all
Scribblin' my self-created situation on the walls
I don't wanna talk at all, so let me sit
In silence, idly listening to the violins
And in time, I'll forgive myself
Waitin' for you to forgive me too along with everyone else
[Hook]
In My Head, is a battle that I know I can't win
In My Head, I try to handle coping with my sins
In My Head, is a lonely candle that's burning within
In My Head, is the cold hand that keeps pulling me in
[Verse 2]
I keep it movin', don't give a f** about tunnel lights
Cuz if I do then I know I'ma be like f** life
So I crush mics, with such might, to flush-my
Uptight vibes and slit my wrist with a buck knife
Sometimes, I don't feel like dealin' with it anymore
Cuz when I try, I never seem to get off the floor
'N gettin' pissed off at the wall that I'm talkin' towards
I write songs cuz everything else you all ignored
Ya'll are poor? f** you overtiming pieces of sh**
An interview is a f**ing ha**le to even get
If you ain't happy bout gettin' money, leave it b**h
I'd clean taco bell with a toothbrush if I needed it
You see me pissed, cuz I didn't get life easy
You got it made, so why would you wanna be me?
100 percent rage, love is something that leaves me
Maybe I'm invisible, seems like nobody sees me
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[Verse 3]
I was given a mentality, I actually hate
Cuz I lack the ability to be happy on any day
So let me say, that some day, I'm gonna end it all
Point the semi-automatic at myself and let it off
I'm in need of help, that this life can't give me
The broken toy on the shelf, and nobody can fix me
Only thing I'm afraid of is the moment you forget me
So whether heaven or hell, I want to know if you'll miss me
I could be brightest genius in dark clouds
Only communicating in alien sharp sounds
Celestial pedestal, sitting higher than star bound
But I stay so quiet, you could prolly hear my heart pound
It starts now, turning the table on all of you
Hip hops apostal, you can call me bartholomew
You know that I'm gonna lose, this battle with suicide
So f** the help I refused, this is the end of the line
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