I stalled in recalling
The way I lived before
I went away and sparked the Winter War
Some brightness, once lightness
Now sits heavy beneath my ribs
Collects the weight of everything I did
Oh but I had me a cause
A good cause I thought
The Bleeding drum beating
Its time under my skin
The cavalry goes riding out again
Then lost and exhausted
In that desert in my head
I put my lips to water, tasted sand
Oh but I had me a cause
A good cause I thought
So if you see me start retreating
See the shadow cross my eyes
I'm gonna place a bet on wine, I'm gonna take my own advice
And if I'm lucky I can see your lantern shine
I came back to find that
The truth I knew as sure
Doesn't seem so certain anymore
The past lies in fragments
That slip out of my dreams
And follow me down all these crooked streets
I Guess I'm haunted and lost
Chalk up a loss
Now I'm Given, a vision
That I'm not sure I can trust
Of a woman throwing her dice down in the dust
And a house made of mortar
And I wish this house my home
To hang it up and burn my uniform
But what is the cost
When I give up the cause