[Intro: Ashtin Larold]
Yeah
My whole f**ing life's been crazy, lately
Like, looking back, I don't even know how the f** I got here
[Verse 1: Ashtin Larold]
Half-smoked cigarette, half-drank beer
See my half-dressed reflection, in this half-cracked mirror
Hindsight's 10/10, see the past half clear
Having half-a** s**, bumpin' Atmosphere
I'm halfway to forty, half a quarter-life crisis
Cracker-a** rapper in bed half-lifeless
Halfway certain this is what i wanna do
Half I don't know, maybe i should find something new
I'm, half-driven by this vision that consumes me
Holding half back by the fear of this new me
Ashtin, who's he?
Feelin' like there's two "me"s
Which one is the man with the fans and the groupies?
Who's the dude always on your girl's phone?
Who's the dude travelling around doing shows?
Trick question
It doesn't really matter whoever the f** I am
I was born to be a rapper
[Hook: Ashtin Larold]
Is the gla** half full?
Is the gla** half empty?
Maybe this is God trynna test me
Been a while since I thought about repenting
Is the gla** half full?
Is the gla** half empty?
I only like my sins if they're deadly
Lust, pride, greed, never envy
I love it when the Devil try to tempt me
Is the gla** half full?
Is the gla** half empty?
(He can be happy until you're
He can be happy until you're
He can be happy until you're happy with yourself)
But who the f** am I?
(He can be happy until you're
He can be happy until you're
He can be happy until you're happy with yourself)
But I don't know
[Verse 2: Ashtin Larold]
Blurred vision's got the whole world spinning
I try not to think about the way I've been living
All the drinking and the party and the women
But it's like I'm addicted to deplorable decisions
Maybe I'll meet a girl, maybe meet a few
I just hope I don't regret it like I did with you
Sleeping around is something I've been known to do
It makes me feel like I'm human or something closer to
But emotionally numb is how I try to be
I just repress all the feelings deep inside of me
Don't need somebody to grow older and die with me
I'm just looking for somebody to spend the night with me
I'm aware that this life will be the d**h of me
But a normal f**ing life just wasn't meant for me
One man's insane is another man's serenity
So when I die, tell the Devil to ready hell for me