It was cold that day
A welcome breeze distracted me
Just one of many things I'm trying to remember
How could the architect
Have known I fit so easily
Across that bridge with all these heavy thoughts
That weigh like bowling balls
I watched the airport welcome visitors from California
India and god knows where
Wishing I was pa**ing through
With thoughts of home and distant zip codes
I wrote these words with carelessness
An SOS to save me from this place
Are we alone out here
Believing in our awkward dreams
The backward ways we see ourselves
That push us forward endlessly
I'm at the edge but is my net ready below?
And what on earth could catch me
If I fell from such a distance?
I take the hardest step with eyes shut tight
And feeling like my heart is in my stomach
And the world drops out below my feet
As life and d**h become the same and they open my eyes
For what feels like the first time
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And don't look, don't look down
Don't look, don't look now
The past is in the past, they say
It took a long, long time to think that way
Don't look, don't look down
Don't look, don't look now
A last chance comes but once, they say
It took a long, long time to think this way
And as I black out I see silver lining all my thoughts
Visions of a place so calm with endless beach and open sky
I am a ghost ship for my memory
A refugee now cast away inside myself
The compa** spins internally
I start to run through lucid sands
As voices echo hauntingly and dissonant
“Wake up, move if you can hear us
Well I think he's dead”
As engines roar above my head
I wake to see
The real world towering over me
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