They say we've come to far
Inching along tryna get my footing
Busy looking at "shouldn't"
Getting hooked on "I couldn't"
I spent the last 3 years tryna be heard
I've got the ears of the world now I'm tryna be learned
Its a yearning
Severe deficiency with my intimacy
Thought it was missing but its hidden in me
Hitting plenty places I didn't know it applied
Putting words to things I didn't know I could scribe
Really I been winging it, didn't know I could fly
I didn't know that failure was synonymous with try
Cuz it doesn't exist
My gift was given by God
But this was different what was given was a glimpse of my God
All these rhythms I was hearing in the midst of my God
But I was tripping
Thought that this was my god
I thought the wind was the sky
Stall me out Deebo
Draw me out these roads
& make it clearer
& a calling ain't my calling til I hear it
Ironic clarity brings interference
& pa**ion can be driven by distractions
Often rooted in past tense
That last sentence was my life in 30 years
Swimming in dirty tears
Finding worth in my peers
But, when I peer into the pier of my fears
What appears is a present
Fact not a suggestion
Faren said I was rare
All I see is my arrogance
I'm learning my perspective can easily be a d**h sentence
I'm tired...Lord help me to not find rest in it
& you expose my voids to find the rest in it
The lesson in it is d**h to my opinion
& enjoy the less in the beginning
Say we've come too far
I've traveled a distance with my dense sense
Imagine what I'd unravel with some persistence
& this is, Kairos
Thought I arrived but you can't drive w/ a blindfold & your eyes closed