1st verse:
I been around the block mo' times than I should've./
I done mo' wrong than I thought I would've./
I ain't done enough good than I could've,/
And that's what makes me keep goin'
My momma raised me herself;
I owe her more than I'll ever have./
I'm a man -owe that to the dad I never had./
Wasn't brought up in a home with luxuries,/
But my momma never let me starve or saw me suffering./
I was a youngin' keepin' to himself;
Non-problematic scholar./
I grew up tryna earn myself a dollar./
I was walking the hallways with a rubberband
Back then, I thought I had the upperhand
Phone wasn't dry, and my women stayed wet
I wasn't trippin' ‘bout some lack of progress made yet
Thought I'd be chillin' -rappin', smokin'; laid back
Throughout high school, all I did was make tracks because
//Chorus//
//that's all I ever knew
Bury myself in my thoughts
All I ever do
Is give it everything that I've got
I just hope it's worth it...//
2nd verse:
8th grade, I performed for the hell of it./
s**as didn't know so I wanted to tell ‘em quick./
No one spit like Javier
I will dare s**as to out-spit me./
I'll survive a cypher; try your best to outlive me./
Since 6th grade, I been drownin' in notebooks./
Page after page, writin' lyrics and dope hooks./
Damned if I don't do this right; ain't got much left./
It's a full-time job livin' life check-to-check./
It's a bet -Im'a do this ‘til I'm under a headstone
This life should bring me success if the next won't
9th grade, I was in a booth at last
Feelin' myself, spittin' cool a** raps
10th grade, rockin' stages
11th grade, awesome babes with cute besties I f**ed by twelfth
Weed keeps me lifted when I'm not myself
They ain't never had my back growin' up, and so I've got myself because
//Chorus//
//that's all I ever knew
Bury myself in my thoughts
All I ever do
Is give it everything that I've got
I just hope it's worth it...//
3rd verse:
Third summer since I graduated;/
Plenty times I've reflected and evaluated./
I had it, then I lost it; my life had been corrupted;/
If only these kids hadn't interrupted./
I knew ‘bout the burning bush, but not ‘bout burnin' tree./
I took a toke, learned to roll; still smokin' currently./
The past has haunted me; honestly, I'm so fed up./
These ghosts and illusions don't let up./
Voices told me to long that I won't man up./
The road is bumpy and I've fallen, but I'm gon' stand up./
More I think about it, the more I wanna live it up./
Too long I had gone without will to give a f**, man
Ignored my surroundings; I should've interacted./
If I had tried to study, it would've been a habit./
I never tried out for sports; could've went to practice./
What if Eminem saw his chance but didn't catch it?/
Just imagine./
//Chorus//
//that's all I ever knew
Bury myself in my thoughts
All I ever do
Is give it everything that I've got
I just hope it's worth it...//