[Verse 1: M.Wade]
Grandparents just got off crack
So don't mind me if I get off track
That's why I'm to talk about these things
Cause as soon as they relax it feels like they'll relapse
And I couldn't do a thing about it
Remember the days I tried to make it out
Now I'm tryna get myself through college
And in one piece
Never knowing when I'ma eat
But if you rap I gotta take you out
Dreaming of them 5 course meals
Trying to stay on this course to a mill
A lot of y'all can't relate to this pain that I feel
This what y'all wanted though right
Authentic so you know I'm real
Uncle Snick back into the pen
Only writing letters with a pen
My aunt is such a thoroughbred
She give that n***a money whenever he going in
I feel bad for the kids though
Cause he got a son and 3 daughters
But the youngest barely know of him
And things are only getting worse
My cousin sell d** the same day he go to church
How's that for some irony?
How's that for some honesty?
And I ain't even done yet
How about the time my mom slept around on my pops cause she was upset
Turns out it was the landlords brother
We got lower rent
Yea n***a we got lower rent
Pops retaliated, they been together for 20 years they might as well get married
Cause y'all work each other up, no procrastination
But I hope they never let it go
Cause they be my inspiration
Yea they gotta know
I just can't believe how far I've come
From the Red Roof Inn, to the basement, to another one
And now we back on the street
Till my Aunt Deanna opened her home on Zarker Street
Man I'll never forget that
I never regret that
May she rest her soul, sad thing is
She never worked out, but she always seem to keep a six pack
Damn, that's true sh**
I never get out and just do sh**
Ironic how I was never into puppets but I'm always pulling strings
Like I'm tryna play acoustics
Ha, all I want is some c-notes
Me and the fam both
But ain't nobody perfect
I stare into the mirror soul searching
But if you judge me get a better case
I'm still tryna find a better place
For not only myself
I remember all that Section 8
This ain't for n***as who can't relate
I mean 2 floors
Maybe 2 beds, I never did debate
As long as I had somewhere to sleep
The smell of marijuana pops stay smokinghis weed
I never missed that, all I did was get used to that
Inhaled it so much I even thought that I was smoking it with em
But you don't know me like you think you do
Another person's envy is another person's gratitude
Pray for like, 10 n***as in jail but only got a few
And that's real sh**
Jada behind the wheel sh**
Charles Manson n***a, sometimes I wanna k** sh**
I wanna k** sh**
Sometimes I wanna k** sh**
Any of y'all haters feel this?
I know y'all n***as feel this
All I talk is real sh**
Truth for truth, no lie for lie
Looking out for you baby, eye for eye
But it's moments like these
With friends like these
I wouldn't have it any other way
Life's been bad as of late
But it's bound to get better
Things are beautiful when they coming together
I'm talking family, rap, they telling me to relax
How can I chill when the flow's on the map?
My team's full of wolves cause we travel in packs
Told myself all these moments would be stories one day
Told myself all these moments would be stories one day
I hope I see the glory one day
[Bridge: Andy Ramos]
A lot are saying I've changed but those who say that are just those who don't want me to succeed. I have not changed, I've become better. So if better is not what you're looking for from me then stay away from me cause I dont need you. You're not holding me back. I've worked too hard to allow this to happen. But just know you support me now or never. Dont be around my life when I'm actually making a difference. Cause success is a question, and dont come ask me about it, when I have all the answers. For now though take these words and listen...
[Verse 2: Andy Ramos]
Dont ever try to judge me, without being in my shoes
So this verse gives you my Nikes, so you could get a better view
Of things that changed my life or gave it a little shape
Noticing what went wrong, and learning from my mistakes
Being from the projects, struggles became apparent
The worst thing of it all, went through it with just a parent
My father was never there, thought he would come, that was absurd
And let me take "father" back, he doesn't deserve the word
Cause as far as I know, a father is there for who breeds
Instead he gets another family, forgets we exist and leaves
I dont really care now but as a kid it meant a lot
I grew up with expectations, that I knew I had to drop
My mom did a great job but right now I just figure
There were just those moments, I needed a father figure...
For example, I had problems with the girls and I did not know who talk to. I could talk to mom but she's a girl too. So I mean I had no one to go to. There was my brothers and all but I wouldn't open up to them. I always figured if my dad was there, I would be more open
With that being said, I've learned to leave him in the past
And I'm not saying that I hate him, but I really think I hate him
I'm just like one of my parents
I'm just happy that it ain't him
Cause he's a deadbeat, who just left me as a ba*tard
Not wishing d**h upon him, but maybe he could die faster?
Nah, I dont mean that , what I would really like to happen
Is for him to live on and regret not being there
Thinking about his kids and seeing it wasn't fair
Cause no kid deserves to grow up without seeing their dad
There would be times when they need him, those times they'd be sad
They would sit up in their beds
And think of why he left or not even why he left, but why he hasn't showed
And where he has been this whole time as his son begins to grow