I woke up on the wrong side of the afternoon
Disconcerting words danced around my head
Did I say too much or not enough?
Perspective depends on where you're standing
I was lost when I learned how to shut it off
Been tearing down walls since that day and still
Like your favorite Futures song goes
“I've always been the easy k**... guess I always will”
And I was one step shy of that thinnest line
Between folding my hand and laying all my cards on the table
But I went all in and I let you win
It was close enough to the real thing
It was close enough to the real thing
As far as I know
I made my way to the living room
Where we spent a lifetime in just a few nights
Where I barely knew you
But you were all promise on this side of paradise
It was here that I threw my doubts against the walls
In hopes that something I couldn't reach might fall into place
I was one step shy of that thinnest line
Between folding my hand and laying all my cards on the table
But I let you in
I let you in
It was close enough to the real thing
And I know it's true that I deserve to be set aside
I just wanted you to know I tried to cross that window
That opened up long ago
Just when I caught sight of something beautiful on the other side
It slammed shut on me
And ever since then I've been distant, cold, and shaking
I was one step shy of that thinnest line